State of the nation address? Fuck that, more to the point, state of my mentality address at the moment. We all know that the country is currently being led by a village idiot and his lackeys, unfortunately that is something we cannot change at the moment other than the action of impeachment, but we all know that isn't going to happen. Either way that isn't what I have come to yap about today. Today we will be talking about the way things have been going down around every single one of us, yet some of the world's population have been too fucking lazy to do the things that have been necessary for advancement. At one point in everyones life, we have all seen it, or have been guilty of doing it. To this I say "with a little blending of Dr. Dennis Leary and Nike" if it needs to be done, just shut the fuck up and do it. The world will be a happier place and you will be a better person if you just follow this advice. No one wants to hear people procrastinate about shit. No one wants to hear the incessant talk of somone's dreams and intentions without any gameplan of accomplishing making those dreams into a reality. Either shit, or get off the pot.... Let's fuck, or go fuck yourself if all you want to do is talk about it, and for those of you who subscribe to that little green muppet known as the Tao of Yoda "Do or do not, there is no try...." The road to hell is paved with good intentions folks, lets make sure that the majority of us don't travel down that path. If you do intend on traveling that path, may I suggest you quickly get a hobby, get laid, get some rope. And another thing it seems no matter what I do with myspace I still get people who waste my time as well as the oxygen of others at the top of the food chain by friend requesting me when it kind of is in your face and to the point that there is a ninety nine point eight percent chance I will not add you if you request an add. Not to say that I am anti social, but for fuck's sake if, you don't know me, or my personality, or even have anything in common with me as far as common interests are concerned why the hell would you want to add me to your friends list? Is it so you can be at the top of the Myspace totem pole with ten thousand friends? Get the fuck over yourself and it, you will never talk to those people so they are not your friends. I put my profile on private so those of you who I do have something in common with and those of you I do keep in contact with can continue to read and "and hopefully enjoy" some of my blog rage. Problem fixed? Fuck no, I still am getting friend requests from people who can't tell anything about me. For them I have this wish, go out breathe some fresh air, enjoy the three dimensional people for once in your fucking lives, if you can't manage to do that, unplug your fucking grapes from your electronic leash. If you can't do that seek professional help. Lastly if you choose not to follow any of this advice, follow step three of "get a hobby, get laid, or get some rope" So till next rant.
Ciao paisan's
Saturday, December 29, 2012
State of...... 04/23/07
State of the nation address? Fuck that, more to the point, state of my mentality address at the moment. We all know that the country is currently being led by a village idiot and his lackeys, unfortunately that is something we cannot change at the moment other than the action of impeachment, but we all know that isn't going to happen. Either way that isn't what I have come to yap about today. Today we will be talking about the way things have been going down around every single one of us, yet some of the world's population have been too fucking lazy to do the things that have been necessary for advancement. At one point in everyones life, we have all seen it, or have been guilty of doing it. To this I say "with a little blending of Dr. Dennis Leary and Nike" if it needs to be done, just shut the fuck up and do it. The world will be a happier place and you will be a better person if you just follow this advice. No one wants to hear people procrastinate about shit. No one wants to hear the incessant talk of somone's dreams and intentions without any gameplan of accomplishing making those dreams into a reality. Either shit, or get off the pot.... Let's fuck, or go fuck yourself if all you want to do is talk about it, and for those of you who subscribe to that little green muppet known as the Tao of Yoda "Do or do not, there is no try...." The road to hell is paved with good intentions folks, lets make sure that the majority of us don't travel down that path. If you do intend on traveling that path, may I suggest you quickly get a hobby, get laid, get some rope. And another thing it seems no matter what I do with myspace I still get people who waste my time as well as the oxygen of others at the top of the food chain by friend requesting me when it kind of is in your face and to the point that there is a ninety nine point eight percent chance I will not add you if you request an add. Not to say that I am anti social, but for fuck's sake if, you don't know me, or my personality, or even have anything in common with me as far as common interests are concerned why the hell would you want to add me to your friends list? Is it so you can be at the top of the Myspace totem pole with ten thousand friends? Get the fuck over yourself and it, you will never talk to those people so they are not your friends. I put my profile on private so those of you who I do have something in common with and those of you I do keep in contact with can continue to read and "and hopefully enjoy" some of my blog rage. Problem fixed? Fuck no, I still am getting friend requests from people who can't tell anything about me. For them I have this wish, go out breathe some fresh air, enjoy the three dimensional people for once in your fucking lives, if you can't manage to do that, unplug your fucking grapes from your electronic leash. If you can't do that seek professional help. Lastly if you choose not to follow any of this advice, follow step three of "get a hobby, get laid, or get some rope" So till next rant.
Ciao paisan's
Ciao paisan's
Myspace about me:
About me:
..
.."WALKING THE PATH BETWEEN DARKNESS & THE LIGHT".. .. .. .. Industrial, adventurous free spirit
with a sarcastic, and artistic edge and creature of the night who has come back from the rift.
1/2 evil - 1/2 smartass. Usually make more time for music, working out, and movies than I do TV.
I am currently a student at Mt Sac studying Computer Information Systems..... I have been corrupted
and jaded by life and too many experiences within it. "Thank the Army for that."Restarted work on my
script/novel as of 7/12/05. General chaos is a rule I live by in my life. It just makes things a bit
more interesting. Coffee and online gaming are only a few of my addictions. I love taking roadtrips,
it never is the destination but the journey. I am a pirate for life. The voices in my nightmares always
exterminate the screams in my head. The pain of it all just lets you know you are alive.
Then again, one of the most important things I learned from SSgt. Toombs was "PAIN IS WEAKNESS LEAVING
THE BODY"
Of all the things I have lost, I miss my mind the most.
The only way of preventing chaos is by unleashing it.
And most recently
Make peace, or die......
Another mission The powers have called me away
Another time To carry the colors again
My motivation An oath I've sworn to defend
To win the honor Of coming back home again
No explanation Will matter after we begin
Another dark destroyer that's buried within
My true vocation And know my unfortunate friend
You will discover A war you're unable to win
I'll have you know That I've become...
Indestructible Determination that is incorruptible
From the other side A terror to behold
Annihilation will be unavoidable Every broken enemy will know
That their opponent had to be invincible
Take a last look around while you're alive I'm an indestructible master of war
Another reason Another cause for me to fight
Another fuse uncovered Now, for me to light
My dedication To all that I've sworn to protect
I carry out my orders With not a regret
A declaration Embedded deep under my skin
A permanent reminder Of how we began
No hesitation When I am commanding the strike
You need to know That you're in for the fight of your life
You will be shown How I've become....
Indestructible Determination that is incorruptible
From the other side A terror to behold
Annihilation will be unavoidable Every broken enemy will know
That their opponent had to be invincible
Take a last look around while you're alive I'm an indestructible master of war
I'm... Indestructible
Determination that is incorruptible
From the other side A terror to behold
Annihilation will be unavoidable Every broken enemy will know
That their opponent had to be invincible Take a last look around while you're alive
I am indestructible (indestructible)
Indestructible... Determination that is incorruptible
From the other side A terror to behold
Annihilation will be unavoidable Every broken enemy will know
That their opponent had to be invincible
Take a last look around while you're alive I'm an indestructible master of war
Sorry, sometimes I get lost in the sauce on occasion and break into rambling about innane shite.
I blame it on ADD and my lack of ability to multitask after 2:00am. Also I blame it on constantly indulging
my addiction, "MUSIC.... You fucking morons." So where was I, ohhhhh yea I love clubbing and partying and
find myself commuting between LA and the Bay area on a regular basis. I also do other IT consulting for an
entertainment company "again that is on a need to know, and if I don't know ya, then ya don't need to."
That might be put on hold due to the powers that be at this moment. Fuck George Dubuah "that fucking
brown-noser" and the religious right for fucking up our rights and freedom of speech just because they
are easily offended. The world needs and enema, and we are just the ones to give it one.
Arghhhhhh, ANARCHY FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!! Uhhhhhhhh, sorry. Sometimes I go off on one of my roadrage rants
and have to vent. So what else can I say about myself? Well, plenty actually.... Even though in a past life I was well known as a knuckle dragging regulator and still do revert back to the old ways at times does not make me that now. I usually stay three steps ahead of the game at all times. And hey, something else that bugs me..... Who the fuck came up with the saying "I'm a lover, not a fighter." If you subscribe to this philosophy you should be taken out back, flogged, monkeystomped, and be made to walk the fucking plank. I am both a lover and a fighter. People with any character whatsoever should be more than willing to fight for the things that they love. I fully appreciate everything that life has to offer and usually take whatever life has to offer me. What is that pirate code again "Take all you can, give nothing back.." YARGHHHHH!!!!!!
PS: If ya don't like smartasses, JOKE YOU IF YA CAN'T TAKE A FUCK!!! Oh yea if you didn't already know it...
Drunk and stupid is not the way to go through life kids, it is pretty fucking funny to watch though....
Who I'd like to meet:
..
People with similar interests in music and lifestyle. People who are into living, and playing on a level
most only dream of. Ink and piercings are a bonus... Someone who knows how to have a good time no matter
where they are or what they are doing. When it comes to doing, "heh" there are plenty of things I love to do.
If you are down with partying and coffee and just general shenanigans then we can hang out. If you are
endowed with ink, and or piercings, and can cowboy the fuck up for some shenanigans then you get bonus
points and possibly more of my time. If you seem cool I will probably email you and let you know you are
worthy. If you are high maintenance or if you don't add me back you can walk the fucking plank.... If
you decide to get lippy about the pirate thing without knowing what it is about, I will shave your head
and make you walk the fucking plank."If ya can't sing it, don't try and bring it..." People who have
enriched lives and look forward to meeting new people and experiences to further enrich their lives.
Laid back people are always cool and will also be considered for new friends.Currently in the middle of
working on a writing a script/novel so a muse to inspire my creativity would be good as well. I have no
time for drama in my life so don't be a fucking tool and don't try to fuck with any of my friends or there
will be bloodshed. Just looking for cool new people to hang out and chill with. Hopefully I will catch
some of you at the next Myspace party.It has come to my attention recently that I have left this catagory
way too open for interpretation. So for people I don't want to meet first Catagory One- 17 year old
wannabe goths who think they can somehow enrich my life. "come on kids, you can't hang with the big kids,
hell you can't even legally get into a club." Please, get a few years of life experience, then come see me.
Catagory Two- Bands that think they rate to be a part of my list. There are far too few bands that I would
consider putting up on my site. "Sure I have a few, but at least they are good."
Attention:06/19/06
Due to the annoying amount of bots within the past two weeks, anyone wishing me to add them must first email
me and give me an adequate reason why I should want to. Anyone not adhering to this rule will automatically
be denied.Anyone not being happy with this new rule of mine I will make it as remedial as I can for you
and amusing for the rest of us.We all know monkeys are funny to watch when they do this so go find yourself
a football, or a coconut, whichever you prefer and go fuck it.
ATTENTION:05/24/07
Due to a certain individual that has made it his personal mission to try and gaff me off, I have made
my page private to everyone excluding existant friends. Myspace was at first going to be a culmination
of all of my previous works, blogs, etc. The past is to be left in the past though and anyone who remembers
any of my previous works can still view them. I have changed considerably though, and the person that I
was back in the days of Xanga, LJ, DJ, and Tripod does not exist as much as it once had. What you see
here now is what you get. As it always has stood if you dig what I have to say cool, if not then please
don't let the door hit ya in the ass on the way out. My outlook on relationships has changed considerably
within the recent past and I am happy to say that I don't consider love to be such a horrible thing anymore.
Some people are quite worth the risk.
..
.."WALKING THE PATH BETWEEN DARKNESS & THE LIGHT".. .. .. .. Industrial, adventurous free spirit
with a sarcastic, and artistic edge and creature of the night who has come back from the rift.
1/2 evil - 1/2 smartass. Usually make more time for music, working out, and movies than I do TV.
I am currently a student at Mt Sac studying Computer Information Systems..... I have been corrupted
and jaded by life and too many experiences within it. "Thank the Army for that."Restarted work on my
script/novel as of 7/12/05. General chaos is a rule I live by in my life. It just makes things a bit
more interesting. Coffee and online gaming are only a few of my addictions. I love taking roadtrips,
it never is the destination but the journey. I am a pirate for life. The voices in my nightmares always
exterminate the screams in my head. The pain of it all just lets you know you are alive.
Then again, one of the most important things I learned from SSgt. Toombs was "PAIN IS WEAKNESS LEAVING
THE BODY"
Of all the things I have lost, I miss my mind the most.
The only way of preventing chaos is by unleashing it.
And most recently
Make peace, or die......
Another mission The powers have called me away
Another time To carry the colors again
My motivation An oath I've sworn to defend
To win the honor Of coming back home again
No explanation Will matter after we begin
Another dark destroyer that's buried within
My true vocation And know my unfortunate friend
You will discover A war you're unable to win
I'll have you know That I've become...
Indestructible Determination that is incorruptible
From the other side A terror to behold
Annihilation will be unavoidable Every broken enemy will know
That their opponent had to be invincible
Take a last look around while you're alive I'm an indestructible master of war
Another reason Another cause for me to fight
Another fuse uncovered Now, for me to light
My dedication To all that I've sworn to protect
I carry out my orders With not a regret
A declaration Embedded deep under my skin
A permanent reminder Of how we began
No hesitation When I am commanding the strike
You need to know That you're in for the fight of your life
You will be shown How I've become....
Indestructible Determination that is incorruptible
From the other side A terror to behold
Annihilation will be unavoidable Every broken enemy will know
That their opponent had to be invincible
Take a last look around while you're alive I'm an indestructible master of war
I'm... Indestructible
Determination that is incorruptible
From the other side A terror to behold
Annihilation will be unavoidable Every broken enemy will know
That their opponent had to be invincible Take a last look around while you're alive
I am indestructible (indestructible)
Indestructible... Determination that is incorruptible
From the other side A terror to behold
Annihilation will be unavoidable Every broken enemy will know
That their opponent had to be invincible
Take a last look around while you're alive I'm an indestructible master of war
Sorry, sometimes I get lost in the sauce on occasion and break into rambling about innane shite.
I blame it on ADD and my lack of ability to multitask after 2:00am. Also I blame it on constantly indulging
my addiction, "MUSIC.... You fucking morons." So where was I, ohhhhh yea I love clubbing and partying and
find myself commuting between LA and the Bay area on a regular basis. I also do other IT consulting for an
entertainment company "again that is on a need to know, and if I don't know ya, then ya don't need to."
That might be put on hold due to the powers that be at this moment. Fuck George Dubuah "that fucking
brown-noser" and the religious right for fucking up our rights and freedom of speech just because they
are easily offended. The world needs and enema, and we are just the ones to give it one.
Arghhhhhh, ANARCHY FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!! Uhhhhhhhh, sorry. Sometimes I go off on one of my roadrage rants
and have to vent. So what else can I say about myself? Well, plenty actually.... Even though in a past life I was well known as a knuckle dragging regulator and still do revert back to the old ways at times does not make me that now. I usually stay three steps ahead of the game at all times. And hey, something else that bugs me..... Who the fuck came up with the saying "I'm a lover, not a fighter." If you subscribe to this philosophy you should be taken out back, flogged, monkeystomped, and be made to walk the fucking plank. I am both a lover and a fighter. People with any character whatsoever should be more than willing to fight for the things that they love. I fully appreciate everything that life has to offer and usually take whatever life has to offer me. What is that pirate code again "Take all you can, give nothing back.." YARGHHHHH!!!!!!
PS: If ya don't like smartasses, JOKE YOU IF YA CAN'T TAKE A FUCK!!! Oh yea if you didn't already know it...
Drunk and stupid is not the way to go through life kids, it is pretty fucking funny to watch though....
Who I'd like to meet:
..
People with similar interests in music and lifestyle. People who are into living, and playing on a level
most only dream of. Ink and piercings are a bonus... Someone who knows how to have a good time no matter
where they are or what they are doing. When it comes to doing, "heh" there are plenty of things I love to do.
If you are down with partying and coffee and just general shenanigans then we can hang out. If you are
endowed with ink, and or piercings, and can cowboy the fuck up for some shenanigans then you get bonus
points and possibly more of my time. If you seem cool I will probably email you and let you know you are
worthy. If you are high maintenance or if you don't add me back you can walk the fucking plank.... If
you decide to get lippy about the pirate thing without knowing what it is about, I will shave your head
and make you walk the fucking plank."If ya can't sing it, don't try and bring it..." People who have
enriched lives and look forward to meeting new people and experiences to further enrich their lives.
Laid back people are always cool and will also be considered for new friends.Currently in the middle of
working on a writing a script/novel so a muse to inspire my creativity would be good as well. I have no
time for drama in my life so don't be a fucking tool and don't try to fuck with any of my friends or there
will be bloodshed. Just looking for cool new people to hang out and chill with. Hopefully I will catch
some of you at the next Myspace party.It has come to my attention recently that I have left this catagory
way too open for interpretation. So for people I don't want to meet first Catagory One- 17 year old
wannabe goths who think they can somehow enrich my life. "come on kids, you can't hang with the big kids,
hell you can't even legally get into a club." Please, get a few years of life experience, then come see me.
Catagory Two- Bands that think they rate to be a part of my list. There are far too few bands that I would
consider putting up on my site. "Sure I have a few, but at least they are good."
Attention:06/19/06
Due to the annoying amount of bots within the past two weeks, anyone wishing me to add them must first email
me and give me an adequate reason why I should want to. Anyone not adhering to this rule will automatically
be denied.Anyone not being happy with this new rule of mine I will make it as remedial as I can for you
and amusing for the rest of us.We all know monkeys are funny to watch when they do this so go find yourself
a football, or a coconut, whichever you prefer and go fuck it.
ATTENTION:05/24/07
Due to a certain individual that has made it his personal mission to try and gaff me off, I have made
my page private to everyone excluding existant friends. Myspace was at first going to be a culmination
of all of my previous works, blogs, etc. The past is to be left in the past though and anyone who remembers
any of my previous works can still view them. I have changed considerably though, and the person that I
was back in the days of Xanga, LJ, DJ, and Tripod does not exist as much as it once had. What you see
here now is what you get. As it always has stood if you dig what I have to say cool, if not then please
don't let the door hit ya in the ass on the way out. My outlook on relationships has changed considerably
within the recent past and I am happy to say that I don't consider love to be such a horrible thing anymore.
Some people are quite worth the risk.
Movies, music, TV, books, icons, etc.
Movies
..Chaotic Film:
Boondock Saints
Serenity
Fight Club
Resident Evil:Apocalypse
Rising Sun
Assassins
Super Troopers
The Fifth Element
Minority Report
The Crow
Collateral
The Ring
Hackers
The Hunted (1995)
Happy Gilmore
Tommy Boy
The Matrix
Army Of Darkness
Gladiator
Braveheart
Playing By Heart
Strange Days
Lost Boys
Bad Santa
The Last Samurai
Vampires
The Art Of War
Lord Of The Rings Trilogy
Spy Game
Juon
Way Of The Gun
The Abyss
The Shawshank Redemption
White Noise
Out Cold
Road Trip
Suicide Kings
Day After Tomorrow
Grosse Point Blank
American History X
Event Horizon
Monty Python's Holy Grail
Snatch
Dawn Of The Dead
Gothika
Bourne Identity/Supremecy
Elektra
Blade Trinity
Ferris Bueller's Day Off
Dogma
The Waterboy
Man On Fire
Mr. & Mrs. Smith
Lords Of Dogtown
Underworld
Happy Tree Friends
A Man Apart
Tears Of The Sun
End Of Days
Stigmata
Shot Through The Heart
Saviour
Lost Souls
Constantine
More To Come....
Music
..Chaotic Audio:
Decoded Feedback
E-Craft
Tactical Sekt
Hazing Ritual
The Distillers
Lacuna Coil
Staind
Aesthetic Perfection
Wumpscut
Pitchshifter
Flaw
SITD
Autoaggression
Informatik
Psyclon Nine
Snot
Glis
Cervello Elettronico
Godkomplex
Rasputina
Terrorfakt
Johnny Cash
Frank Sinatra
Vuxnut
Love Spirals Downward
Die Krupps
Covenant
Birmingham 6
Circle Of Dust
Crossbreed
The Ramones
Icon Of Coil
Dismantled
Killswitch Engage
Kidneytheives
Hoobastank
Combichrist
Test Dept.
Nick Cave
Electric Hellfire Club
Hans Zimmer
Pig
Brian Setzer Orchestra
Dead Can Dance
Godsmack
Zeromancer
Hellsau
Wolfsheim
Tool
Das Ich
Rammstein
Mudvayne
The Prom Kings
Anthrax
Ozzy
Lords Of Acid
Himsa
Qntal
The Misfits
Pinhead Gunpowder
Dropkick Murphys
Ah Cama-Sotz
Soil & Eclipse
C-Tec
Glis
Hatebreed
Pennywise
L'Ame Immortelle
Grendel
American Head Charge
System Of A Down
Cruxshadows
Collide
Abney Park
Bad Religion
The Vandals
Slipknot
Sisters Of Mercy
Vixtrola
In The Nursery
Razed In Black
Social Distortion
Sevendust
Morrissy
A Perfect Circle
Sin
Prodigy
Skinny Puppy
Static X
Sloth
Disturbed
Rise Against
The Used
Old School Punk
Industrial
Gothic
Rockabilly/Psychobilly
Some 80's
more to come.....
.. .. .. ..
..Chaotic Viewing:
24
CSI
Law & Order series
Crossing Jordan
Navy NCIS
NYPD Blue
Tru Calling
Supernatural
Threshold
Aeon Flux
Over There
The Shield
Smallville
Ghost Whisperer
South Park
Extreme Makeover-Home Edition
Lost
Outer Limits
Battlestar Gallactica
Twilight Zone
Stargate series
Andromeda
more to come...
.. .. .. ..
..Chaotic Knowledge:
Tom Cleary-The Book Of Balance and Harmony
Sun Tzu-The Art Of War
Anne Rice-Merrick
Deng Ming Dao- 365 Tao
Tom Clancy- Rainbow Six
Stephen King-It
Stephen King-The Dead Zone
Micho Kaku-Hyperspace
Anthony Robbins-Awaken The Giant Within
Dave Lowry-Moving Toward Stillness
Paulo Coelho-The Alchemist
Eckhart Tolle-The Power Of Now
Neale Walsch-Conversations With God
Brown/Novick-Mavericks Of The Mind
Brian Greene-The Elegant Universe
more to come....
.. .. .. ..
..Chaotic Icons:
My version of God
Remaining crew members of PARLEY "Drink up me hearties Yo Ho."
The Ruckus Empire
Remaining crew members of SCC
"Hero's, we don't need no stinking hero's"
My alter ego
More to come, perhaps....
..Chaotic Film:
Boondock Saints
Serenity
Fight Club
Resident Evil:Apocalypse
Rising Sun
Assassins
Super Troopers
The Fifth Element
Minority Report
The Crow
Collateral
The Ring
Hackers
The Hunted (1995)
Happy Gilmore
Tommy Boy
The Matrix
Army Of Darkness
Gladiator
Braveheart
Playing By Heart
Strange Days
Lost Boys
Bad Santa
The Last Samurai
Vampires
The Art Of War
Lord Of The Rings Trilogy
Spy Game
Juon
Way Of The Gun
The Abyss
The Shawshank Redemption
White Noise
Out Cold
Road Trip
Suicide Kings
Day After Tomorrow
Grosse Point Blank
American History X
Event Horizon
Monty Python's Holy Grail
Snatch
Dawn Of The Dead
Gothika
Bourne Identity/Supremecy
Elektra
Blade Trinity
Ferris Bueller's Day Off
Dogma
The Waterboy
Man On Fire
Mr. & Mrs. Smith
Lords Of Dogtown
Underworld
Happy Tree Friends
A Man Apart
Tears Of The Sun
End Of Days
Stigmata
Shot Through The Heart
Saviour
Lost Souls
Constantine
More To Come....
Music
..Chaotic Audio:
Decoded Feedback
E-Craft
Tactical Sekt
Hazing Ritual
The Distillers
Lacuna Coil
Staind
Aesthetic Perfection
Wumpscut
Pitchshifter
Flaw
SITD
Autoaggression
Informatik
Psyclon Nine
Snot
Glis
Cervello Elettronico
Godkomplex
Rasputina
Terrorfakt
Johnny Cash
Frank Sinatra
Vuxnut
Love Spirals Downward
Die Krupps
Covenant
Birmingham 6
Circle Of Dust
Crossbreed
The Ramones
Icon Of Coil
Dismantled
Killswitch Engage
Kidneytheives
Hoobastank
Combichrist
Test Dept.
Nick Cave
Electric Hellfire Club
Hans Zimmer
Pig
Brian Setzer Orchestra
Dead Can Dance
Godsmack
Zeromancer
Hellsau
Wolfsheim
Tool
Das Ich
Rammstein
Mudvayne
The Prom Kings
Anthrax
Ozzy
Lords Of Acid
Himsa
Qntal
The Misfits
Pinhead Gunpowder
Dropkick Murphys
Ah Cama-Sotz
Soil & Eclipse
C-Tec
Glis
Hatebreed
Pennywise
L'Ame Immortelle
Grendel
American Head Charge
System Of A Down
Cruxshadows
Collide
Abney Park
Bad Religion
The Vandals
Slipknot
Sisters Of Mercy
Vixtrola
In The Nursery
Razed In Black
Social Distortion
Sevendust
Morrissy
A Perfect Circle
Sin
Prodigy
Skinny Puppy
Static X
Sloth
Disturbed
Rise Against
The Used
Old School Punk
Industrial
Gothic
Rockabilly/Psychobilly
Some 80's
more to come.....
.. .. .. ..
..Chaotic Viewing:
24
CSI
Law & Order series
Crossing Jordan
Navy NCIS
NYPD Blue
Tru Calling
Supernatural
Threshold
Aeon Flux
Over There
The Shield
Smallville
Ghost Whisperer
South Park
Extreme Makeover-Home Edition
Lost
Outer Limits
Battlestar Gallactica
Twilight Zone
Stargate series
Andromeda
more to come...
.. .. .. ..
..Chaotic Knowledge:
Tom Cleary-The Book Of Balance and Harmony
Sun Tzu-The Art Of War
Anne Rice-Merrick
Deng Ming Dao- 365 Tao
Tom Clancy- Rainbow Six
Stephen King-It
Stephen King-The Dead Zone
Micho Kaku-Hyperspace
Anthony Robbins-Awaken The Giant Within
Dave Lowry-Moving Toward Stillness
Paulo Coelho-The Alchemist
Eckhart Tolle-The Power Of Now
Neale Walsch-Conversations With God
Brown/Novick-Mavericks Of The Mind
Brian Greene-The Elegant Universe
more to come....
.. .. .. ..
..Chaotic Icons:
My version of God
Remaining crew members of PARLEY "Drink up me hearties Yo Ho."
The Ruckus Empire
Remaining crew members of SCC
"Hero's, we don't need no stinking hero's"
My alter ego
More to come, perhaps....
Liberate.
Bold motherfucker Don't limit your mind Can't you see that the pace Has fallen behind All the hate in
your heart Will be leaving you blind So bold motherfucker Don't you limit your mind This time Waiting, for your modern messiah To take away all the hatred That darkens the light in your eye Still awaiting. I
The rest of this however, I tend not to agree with coming from my background. The ex military side
of me see's the "nation shall not raise sword against nation" as absurd. This is the way things have
been done through the centuries and this is the way things will continue to be done. It takes an equally long time to unlearn a process that has been efficient up to this point. The process of war has continued to be an equalizer in areas such as gross misconduct of a country "probably where we got the label of the worlds police force..." Someone has to be the knuckle dragging regulators around here, might as well be us. Still the lyrics above do not go to say that I approve of hatred. War is just a messy job, but someone has to do it. If it isn't us who puts a stop to the hatred of one nation or one culture against another, then who the fuck will???
your heart Will be leaving you blind So bold motherfucker Don't you limit your mind This time Waiting, for your modern messiah To take away all the hatred That darkens the light in your eye Still awaiting. I
The rest of this however, I tend not to agree with coming from my background. The ex military side
of me see's the "nation shall not raise sword against nation" as absurd. This is the way things have
been done through the centuries and this is the way things will continue to be done. It takes an equally long time to unlearn a process that has been efficient up to this point. The process of war has continued to be an equalizer in areas such as gross misconduct of a country "probably where we got the label of the worlds police force..." Someone has to be the knuckle dragging regulators around here, might as well be us. Still the lyrics above do not go to say that I approve of hatred. War is just a messy job, but someone has to do it. If it isn't us who puts a stop to the hatred of one nation or one culture against another, then who the fuck will???
Whatever happened to certain freedoms?
Hey, here is a question that has plagued me for the past few weeks.... What the fuck happened to freedoms such as being able to kick the living shit out of someone who is being a total knucklehead towards others or towards you. I had the fortunate experience of being able to observe and even toy with humanity at its finest today while at work. While driving to a job today my bro Mike and I were confronted with one of the nations finest groups of protesters "yes folks I am talking about those very dangerous wily militant little vegan group" who were trying to shove their views down everyone's throats while they were driving by their local KFC today. Well I can tell you that something like this just would not stand with us...... Sooooooo yes boys and girls, it became playtime for Mike and myself, after the job we decided to stop on by and get the BEST chicken sandwich and leg meal we had ever had in our lives. We did our best to let the protestors know how tasty it was as well. We even had a few glares thrown our way as well but being as the police were already a well known presence I knew that the malnourished little knot heads weren't going to do much other than that. Before we left three of them were sitting right beside our truck, so we decided to take one last shot at rubbing things in a bit for fun. Mike decided to whip out with the "Man, that was the best scorched chicken flesh I have ever had" I had to pipe up with "Yes, yes. I give it five stars." From the back of me I heard them repeat it in a disgusted tone. The last shot I took at the guy who had repeated it was "No really, you should try it. It's really good..." I think that was the point he started losing his mind and tried to begin to tell me what Jesus Christ says. I began getting back out of the truck while Mike was trying to persuade me not to. Hell, I love a good debate about what Jesus says about eating dead chickens. Especially when I went to Catholic school from 3rd to 10th grade. Needless to say he got cut off and cut down pretty quickly. He I think was getting more irate the longer he tried to debate me from the redness in his face but before he got to the point where he was going to do something incredibly stupid I cut him off with the standard "whatever," got back in the truck and we left. Other than getting to kick the shit out of him for being a complete moron. My day was made.... Toying with people especially when I have pent up aggression always puts a smile on my face, and it had been far too long. Mess with the bull and ya get the horns kids. If you are going to come to me, or any of my friends for a war of wits, ya better come well armed or ya are going to find yourself bleeding on
the deck pretty quick.
the deck pretty quick.
LOL, ok I am hooked.
I used to be known as a sponger "bodyboarder for you landlubbers" but was talked into trying surfing
by a bro of mine. I guess it took a bit of time to take hold but as of yesterday on our Doheney trip,
I got hooked. There is something great, spiritual almost about standing on a board and riding waves in that I have only gotten in one other place. I have never felt this way other than when I have been
skydiving. Waves were only about 3-4 yesterday but it was good enough for my bro's longboard. Caught plenty of waves and just generally had a really good day off. Planning on getting a big group together this weekend so we can just go kick it on the beach and goof off for a bit. It is true about things that you love. Even a bad day doing " " is better than a great day at work.
by a bro of mine. I guess it took a bit of time to take hold but as of yesterday on our Doheney trip,
I got hooked. There is something great, spiritual almost about standing on a board and riding waves in that I have only gotten in one other place. I have never felt this way other than when I have been
skydiving. Waves were only about 3-4 yesterday but it was good enough for my bro's longboard. Caught plenty of waves and just generally had a really good day off. Planning on getting a big group together this weekend so we can just go kick it on the beach and goof off for a bit. It is true about things that you love. Even a bad day doing " " is better than a great day at work.
Avast me fucko's...
It is about 7:00am on Sunday morning and I am sitting here delerious wondering why the fuck I am still up......"Oh yea, the fucking sun is up" Anyway as usual when I am suffering from sleep deprevation I usually get into that cathartic mindset where I just feel like venting a bit. So what has been up recently? Well my week off was way too short considering I had worked 8 days straight the week before. I am thinking of going to Doheney with one of my bro's on Monday to do a bit of surfing before I jump back into the grind on Tuesday. I never thought I would miss school as much as I do right now and cannot wait until Sept. rolls around again so I can jump back into it. I don't know if I ever mentioned how much I despise drama queens and insincerity and once again have found out how one of my "friends" has become just that. "Write that one off." Other than that, I am considering hitting up Australia for two weeks before I get back to school to go visit one of my favorite people. Also I found out one of my friends has gone over to the dark side of her nature. Is it that she is just young and impressionable? Probably... She is about as lost in the sauce as you can get and has not yet learned that the place she is right now is not where the truth of her nature really lies. The place does not define her, and yet she is being led arond by someone who has seen that she has lost herself and has decided to take advantage of that situation. "Remind me to give her a smackdown verbally, and kick the living crap of of the shitbird who is taking advantage of her." Will I be her savior? No, she has to learn a valuable, and probably painful lesson on her own. I will be there for her though if she needs to talk or actually asks for my help. "You know who you are." Maybe that will be my next post. The definition of ones true being. Guess everyone will have to wait, including myself......
Today was a good day...
I can tell you the day started off pretty much as usual Same old shit, different fucko's. I did however
wake up with this really creepy foreboding feeling that something bad was going to happen.
This really usually isn't like me at all. The day went pretty much without incident until around 9:00pm on Tuesday when my bro's wife called saying she had to get into the hospital ASAP. To make a long story short, she has given birth to a eight and a half lb twenty one inch spud named Alexander. I was fortunate enough to meet the little punk who has been kicking the shit out of my best friends wife for the better part of nine months now. Even though the squirt isn't mine, I am still Uncle Tony and it got me a little misty just to see something so great brought into this world. For a second there I forgot that I usually am a hardass and thanked God that Cherie made it through ok and pretty quickly and that mother and son are healthy. Amongst all the bullshit that happens on this little chunk of rock of ours each day, just seeing that last night made up for a great deal of it and most of it seemed very unimportant. At least for now.... Maybe this spud might be one of the ones to do his part to make the world a better place. LMFAO, after all he is a Leo so how the fuck can he miss...
wake up with this really creepy foreboding feeling that something bad was going to happen.
This really usually isn't like me at all. The day went pretty much without incident until around 9:00pm on Tuesday when my bro's wife called saying she had to get into the hospital ASAP. To make a long story short, she has given birth to a eight and a half lb twenty one inch spud named Alexander. I was fortunate enough to meet the little punk who has been kicking the shit out of my best friends wife for the better part of nine months now. Even though the squirt isn't mine, I am still Uncle Tony and it got me a little misty just to see something so great brought into this world. For a second there I forgot that I usually am a hardass and thanked God that Cherie made it through ok and pretty quickly and that mother and son are healthy. Amongst all the bullshit that happens on this little chunk of rock of ours each day, just seeing that last night made up for a great deal of it and most of it seemed very unimportant. At least for now.... Maybe this spud might be one of the ones to do his part to make the world a better place. LMFAO, after all he is a Leo so how the fuck can he miss...
Shades of Grey.
Recently someone I have been getting to know bitched at me for not being more "black and white" about things.This person, not mentioning any names here since they know who they are was fucked off about me seeing situations in more of a grey area and dealing with them in an appropriate manner befitting any grey area. I became very amused with this outlook on my life since this person obviously has not gotten to know the real me yet. I have usually lived my life in that grey area since everything in this world cannot be either black or white. There are shades of grey that all of us have to deal with and this is a place where I feel most comfortable living my life. There are opposites of every being, every situation, every standard, everything. In the middle of these opposites is that area where things are for the most part, solved. Living your life on either one or the other end of the spectrum at times might be a bit extreme and most of the time solves nothing. Granted there are people, things, and situations that are a certainty in my life and that are very black and white. Those things though are the only top priority in my life that are viewed with such clarity. Other things however must be viewed differently. Neither black nor white, good nor evil, this is where "walking between darkness and the light" came from. This is the path that I have chosen to follow. Those who have such a narrow black and white vision of the world should open up their eyes and see that the universe is not that small in scope. There are other colors that exist. People in general should not be so narrow minded as to miss that.
Attention: All fucktards have used up their stupidity quota for the month!!!
For my fucko's this does not include you. You are far more intelligent than the latter group.
Plan of Attack for Dummies 1. You will not tailgate a truck that outweighs you. "Someone might stop
and beat you with a pipe wrench" 2. You will not run over my best friends wife with your bike and
knock her newborn out of her arms "Your bike will be spiked and be made into a piece of abstract art.
Then you will be spiked and become planted in the pavement, or a brick wall." Which area is of my choosing. 3. You will wait an allotted time of at least one minute on a messenger service before buzzing, beeping or in any means ringing me. "These actions usually end up pissing me the fuck off and are viewed as games" I have a better game to play after that.... Impatience will breed more impatience on your side in this instance. 4. All people wishing to debate any subjects relating to areas of Philiosophy, Politics, or Religion should either come armed with facts "not opinions." I love a good debate, but if you are ignorant of the subjects and have opinions based on nothing but hot air and not facts, statistics and historical proof, you will lose painfully. I usually reserve my use of the word hate, but this is one of those extreme instances when I gladly use it. I FUCKING HATE people that try to jam their twisted views down my throat about Religion: "If I don't believe like you do I am going to hell, etc." Politics: "So and so candidate is better than so and so, because...... Well because they just are and so and so is evil." Philosophy: "You can't be this AND that.... You are (add your religion here) you have to be one or the other..." I am so fucking sick of these people trying to tell me who I should be and what I should believe. Listen up knuckleheads, the next dipshit that tries this will be monkey stomped. I am my own person and believe what I will. This is one of the freedoms that my country grants me. It is something I have fought for. It is something I will always fight for. So to any narrow minded, arrogant, ignorant individuals who have the audacity to try to change me, I offer you this piece of advice. A: SHUT YOUR SUCK B: THINK C: THEN SPEAK If you follow these to the letter in order, it will serve you better.
And will save you from a future ass kicking later.
Plan of Attack for Dummies 1. You will not tailgate a truck that outweighs you. "Someone might stop
and beat you with a pipe wrench" 2. You will not run over my best friends wife with your bike and
knock her newborn out of her arms "Your bike will be spiked and be made into a piece of abstract art.
Then you will be spiked and become planted in the pavement, or a brick wall." Which area is of my choosing. 3. You will wait an allotted time of at least one minute on a messenger service before buzzing, beeping or in any means ringing me. "These actions usually end up pissing me the fuck off and are viewed as games" I have a better game to play after that.... Impatience will breed more impatience on your side in this instance. 4. All people wishing to debate any subjects relating to areas of Philiosophy, Politics, or Religion should either come armed with facts "not opinions." I love a good debate, but if you are ignorant of the subjects and have opinions based on nothing but hot air and not facts, statistics and historical proof, you will lose painfully. I usually reserve my use of the word hate, but this is one of those extreme instances when I gladly use it. I FUCKING HATE people that try to jam their twisted views down my throat about Religion: "If I don't believe like you do I am going to hell, etc." Politics: "So and so candidate is better than so and so, because...... Well because they just are and so and so is evil." Philosophy: "You can't be this AND that.... You are (add your religion here) you have to be one or the other..." I am so fucking sick of these people trying to tell me who I should be and what I should believe. Listen up knuckleheads, the next dipshit that tries this will be monkey stomped. I am my own person and believe what I will. This is one of the freedoms that my country grants me. It is something I have fought for. It is something I will always fight for. So to any narrow minded, arrogant, ignorant individuals who have the audacity to try to change me, I offer you this piece of advice. A: SHUT YOUR SUCK B: THINK C: THEN SPEAK If you follow these to the letter in order, it will serve you better.
And will save you from a future ass kicking later.
This is the punk rock minute.
Stealing that from one of the only good radio stations left in the LA area, I will proceed with what
I can only deem as a totally fucked off, angst riddled rant. As of recently I have been feeling increasingly claustrophobic in my own skin. I can only attribute this to things that have been bothering me for the past few weeks. Attitudes in the world, my own country, my workplace, and in my own personal life have me at odds with what I had been beginning to want. For the past few years I have always seemed to be devoid of a quality of hatred I had once held towards things in and around my life that had been in direct contrast to my own life. The attitude I had replaced it with was that of an apathetic nature. As things stand right now, a few weeks ago, a good friend informed me that the hiring freeze within the LA County Sheriffs Department has now been lifted. For the past few days this has had me thinking of how much I had missed the opportunity of joining the force due to the freeze that has lasted for more than a year now. I had been somehow led astray with the promises of a decent living working as a plumber. I somehow fell into the trap of believing this around five months ago. I had somehow had forgotten my last outlook on what my loyalty now entailed towards "a job." My loyalty towards a company, I don't care what company it might be is earned. When I say earned, I would mean earned by someone being able to keep their word when it comes to a set plan. Also my loyalty is earned by a decent financial incentive. So far the company I am currently working for has failed miserably in both cases and I have had enough. I have looked upon the plumbing field for myself from the beginning as only a job. After hearing of the lift of the LASD freeze, the job has suddenly become a piss poor one. Granted full-fledged plumbers make a semi decent living, apprentices however, do not. Could I go apprentice for another company? Yes. Will I? Fuck no. I would be wasting my time and my talents. I can go work any job while going through the process of becoming a deputy which is what I am planning on doing within the next two weeks. So it seems I am a bit negative about my job, but you know my attitude towards it and whoever takes offense towards it. Joke em if they can't take a fuck. Also I am quite fucked off with people in this country bashing the current administration for "falling down on the job." To these people I say, FUCK YOU YOU FUCKING FUCKS!!!!!!! If you could do a better job or had any qualifications whatsoever or had any type of plan of attack for fixing things that are currently wrong with the state of affairs in this country, or the world, you would be the man, "or woman." As it stands none of you have come up with a decent plan for fixing the domestic/foreign affairs that we are dealing with at this moment. So what do you do? You stand around and protest, bitch and moan, and fucking whine and think that the rest of us should listen to you and follow you in your path. I for one say fuck off. I am not one of those whining pussies in your group of self-deluded pack of sheep that for the past few months have seemed to have the collective intelligence of a mealworm. "I'm sorry, that's degrading a mealworm." I am also filled with a certain amount of anger towards the small group of people who think that certain people "get what they deserve." When I mention this I would be speaking of a certain handful of people I had heard speaking on a talk show on 97.1 last evening in regards to some of the people who were trying to rebuild Iraq, the children that were killed in Russia, and certain other foreign and domestic affairs that I am too tired and fed up with to go into at this particular second. For those of you who think that any innocent person "deserves what they get" just for being in the wrong place at the wrong time, you fuckers hold a very special place in my heart that is reserved for a very select few. Anyone who holds this belief in my not so humble opinion at this moment in time should be monkey stomped within an inch of their life, only to be woken up again from a state of unconsciousness to go through the process of being stomped again. For certain people in my life
who think it is "cute" to try to match my attitude towards things, including the "people" I am currently speaking of. I find it irritating at the least and put these certain people on notice.
"You are treading of very thin ice fuckers." Those of you who truly know me, know that playing that
game at this moment is one of the stupidest things you could ever do. Thankfully, people who truly know me haven't ever done such a thing intentionally. It always seems to be the new people who want to me to include them into my life that end up doing it, and then don't get the point of how fucked off I get. Let me be perfectly clear to "these people." As you can tell from this post I have become very busy with work, getting back into school takes up even more of my time, changing my perspective on what is going on and contemplating the changes that will be taking place within the next few weeks takes up even more of my precious time. With all of this going on, I have very little time for myself, this time will be spent on and with a precious few. Continue on the absurd path you have tried to take with me recently, and be counted out of that group. "Some of you already have been if you hadn't already guessed." To wrap this up, I have grown tired of the labels that everyone seems to place on one another. I refuse to be labeled, categorized, or otherwise grouped into a specific spectrum of existence. I refuse to do it to myself since I as well as a handful of others know how complex the human existence is. For now I will lay out one label of what I my feelings encompass at this one moment in time. The label is anger. Fucking deal with it, or don't. Either way I could fucking care less. Or maybe I care too much. But I won't waste my time further on people or things that try to waste my time. To my friends and those that are close to my heart. I love all of you fucko's, and this current angst filled mood shall pass.
I can only deem as a totally fucked off, angst riddled rant. As of recently I have been feeling increasingly claustrophobic in my own skin. I can only attribute this to things that have been bothering me for the past few weeks. Attitudes in the world, my own country, my workplace, and in my own personal life have me at odds with what I had been beginning to want. For the past few years I have always seemed to be devoid of a quality of hatred I had once held towards things in and around my life that had been in direct contrast to my own life. The attitude I had replaced it with was that of an apathetic nature. As things stand right now, a few weeks ago, a good friend informed me that the hiring freeze within the LA County Sheriffs Department has now been lifted. For the past few days this has had me thinking of how much I had missed the opportunity of joining the force due to the freeze that has lasted for more than a year now. I had been somehow led astray with the promises of a decent living working as a plumber. I somehow fell into the trap of believing this around five months ago. I had somehow had forgotten my last outlook on what my loyalty now entailed towards "a job." My loyalty towards a company, I don't care what company it might be is earned. When I say earned, I would mean earned by someone being able to keep their word when it comes to a set plan. Also my loyalty is earned by a decent financial incentive. So far the company I am currently working for has failed miserably in both cases and I have had enough. I have looked upon the plumbing field for myself from the beginning as only a job. After hearing of the lift of the LASD freeze, the job has suddenly become a piss poor one. Granted full-fledged plumbers make a semi decent living, apprentices however, do not. Could I go apprentice for another company? Yes. Will I? Fuck no. I would be wasting my time and my talents. I can go work any job while going through the process of becoming a deputy which is what I am planning on doing within the next two weeks. So it seems I am a bit negative about my job, but you know my attitude towards it and whoever takes offense towards it. Joke em if they can't take a fuck. Also I am quite fucked off with people in this country bashing the current administration for "falling down on the job." To these people I say, FUCK YOU YOU FUCKING FUCKS!!!!!!! If you could do a better job or had any qualifications whatsoever or had any type of plan of attack for fixing things that are currently wrong with the state of affairs in this country, or the world, you would be the man, "or woman." As it stands none of you have come up with a decent plan for fixing the domestic/foreign affairs that we are dealing with at this moment. So what do you do? You stand around and protest, bitch and moan, and fucking whine and think that the rest of us should listen to you and follow you in your path. I for one say fuck off. I am not one of those whining pussies in your group of self-deluded pack of sheep that for the past few months have seemed to have the collective intelligence of a mealworm. "I'm sorry, that's degrading a mealworm." I am also filled with a certain amount of anger towards the small group of people who think that certain people "get what they deserve." When I mention this I would be speaking of a certain handful of people I had heard speaking on a talk show on 97.1 last evening in regards to some of the people who were trying to rebuild Iraq, the children that were killed in Russia, and certain other foreign and domestic affairs that I am too tired and fed up with to go into at this particular second. For those of you who think that any innocent person "deserves what they get" just for being in the wrong place at the wrong time, you fuckers hold a very special place in my heart that is reserved for a very select few. Anyone who holds this belief in my not so humble opinion at this moment in time should be monkey stomped within an inch of their life, only to be woken up again from a state of unconsciousness to go through the process of being stomped again. For certain people in my life
who think it is "cute" to try to match my attitude towards things, including the "people" I am currently speaking of. I find it irritating at the least and put these certain people on notice.
"You are treading of very thin ice fuckers." Those of you who truly know me, know that playing that
game at this moment is one of the stupidest things you could ever do. Thankfully, people who truly know me haven't ever done such a thing intentionally. It always seems to be the new people who want to me to include them into my life that end up doing it, and then don't get the point of how fucked off I get. Let me be perfectly clear to "these people." As you can tell from this post I have become very busy with work, getting back into school takes up even more of my time, changing my perspective on what is going on and contemplating the changes that will be taking place within the next few weeks takes up even more of my precious time. With all of this going on, I have very little time for myself, this time will be spent on and with a precious few. Continue on the absurd path you have tried to take with me recently, and be counted out of that group. "Some of you already have been if you hadn't already guessed." To wrap this up, I have grown tired of the labels that everyone seems to place on one another. I refuse to be labeled, categorized, or otherwise grouped into a specific spectrum of existence. I refuse to do it to myself since I as well as a handful of others know how complex the human existence is. For now I will lay out one label of what I my feelings encompass at this one moment in time. The label is anger. Fucking deal with it, or don't. Either way I could fucking care less. Or maybe I care too much. But I won't waste my time further on people or things that try to waste my time. To my friends and those that are close to my heart. I love all of you fucko's, and this current angst filled mood shall pass.
OK, you fucko's tell me...
I was just informed this evening that one of my acquaintances that she is going through something that I could relate to since I had lost someone that was close to me before. I had to do a double take when she informed me that she and one of her best friends had a falling out...... Wait one fucking second. Was someone trying to compare a having a fallout with a best friend to losing ones fiancé in a car accident??? I am sorry, is it me? Am I the asshole??? Or is this type of comparison so totally fucking asinine it goes beyond any type of logical thinking whatsoever. I have lost a best friend of 19 years to a difference of opinion. And I have lost a fiancé years ago. One is in no way close to as painful, or life changing as losing the love of ones life. This woman has no fucking clue.
State of Perspective.
As I sit here and think to myself over all of the chaos that has been going on within the past few weeks, I have been reflecting most upon something that was said to me yesterday. I was accused of being arrogant. Believe me this was not only directed towards myself but at our nation as a whole. At first I was a bit shocked by this persons take on my state of being and the state of being of our country as a whole, but then I realized that this person's interpretation of arrogance had every negative connotation thrown at me "and us as a nation that she could." I totally forgot the big picture for one brief moment and then the truth came slamming back into place. Yes, I am arrogant and yes so is our country. But not so much as this person would like to take it as a bad thing. For instance, it takes quite a bit of arrogance to become a superpower in this world. It also takes quite a bit of arrogance to know without question that if anything should ever break out in this world that we can go handle whatever it might be. Whether the situation might be a war, or some other type of military conflict, we are ready at a moments notice to go take care of our country as well as other countries problems, without question. It is also arrogant of us to take on the task that other countries and people refuse to such as stem cell research. How fucking arrogant of us to want to play God and mess with nature. How dare we want to change the world for the better by trying to erase diseases such as cancer, AIDS, MS, or other life threatening and debilitating ailments such as these. Who are we to want to make life better for everyone? We have no fucking right!!!!!! How dare we play peacekeeper in other people's countries when atrocities are occurring every second of the day across the planet. We are very fucking arrogant to walk into someone else’s backyard and say, "OK we are here to stop all of this shit that has been going on today." Believe me, those people who back us in trying to take care of other people's situations when they are unable to take care of it themselves, we love you. Those who think we should mind our own business we usually tell to kiss our ass... "Mind you NATO is usually the group who calls us out on peacekeeping missions when requested by said countries." How dare we want to help disaster areas around the globe when it is needed? It is arrogant and wrong of us to think that we could help anyone but ourselves when the need arises, whether that be in the nature of food shipments to drought and poverty stricken areas such as Ethiopia and other parts of the globe, or if it be in the form of medical attention "The Red Cross" being sent worldwide in disease ridden areas such as Africa and India. Or if that be in the form of peacekeeping missions to make
sure that the food provided by us gets through to the people who need it most and protect them from
warlords who would starve them to death to keep them pacified in their twisted way of waging genocide to keep their rule over their country. "Mogadishu ring a bell anyone" How dare we, once a conflict has occurred in one country, want to help rebuild that country so that it can rule itself in relative peace. How arrogant is it of us to want to keep our children safe and healthy by taxing our own people in our own country to build children’s hospitals and provide services like amber alerts all over the nation so that when a child does go missing, there is more than a fighting chance that said child will be found alive and unharmed. How dare our country have a three strikes law whereby violent repeat offenders will go to prison for life without the possibility of parole. How dare we impose a tax on our own people so that people with disabilities and impoverished people in our own country might be helped out in whatever way is needed so that they can be given a fighting chance to survive, and perhaps even thrive here as well. How dare we and how arrogant of us to have the ability to speak out against or for whatever we see fit. Even if it is against our own political head of our nation. It is arrogant of us to think that we can get away with such actions. But yet we can and do every fucking second of the day. Why is this you might ask? Because we are Americans and YES we are arrogant and YES we are very proud of our arrogance. It is arrogant to want to change the world for the better. But it is also our arrogance and our determination and our negativity towards giving up fighting for things that need to be fought for that allows us to change things for the better. I am arrogant, and I am very proud of it. If someone else perceives that as ugly, then that is their hang-up and I won't be faulted for it. I am used to being perceived as someone who loves a good fight. This is true in every sense of the word. I love a good debate, and a good fight. I love to win at whatever it may be and I hate to lose. But then again. I only fight when it is something worth fighting for. Other people and other nations as people who fight for frivolous goals usually perceive us as individuals. These are only meaningless to you because you do not wish to step forward to get involved. You always think "let so and so handle it, then when we do, you fault us for it and call us arrogant."
Let me sum you up then you can call us arrogant every second of the day for the actions that we take and I will continue to thank you for it. I will call you cowards for the inaction that you take,
"You are quite welcome" I guess I am arrogant to want to change the world and fight for things that have meaning, such as change, and growth. I guess I am arrogant to want change for the better so that when I do have a child, the world will be a better place. Somewhere where they can grow up and thrive and learn and be happy. I am arrogant to want to be able to see the smile on my child’s face and be able to look at them and know that I did my best to make the world a wonderful place for them to grow up. I can look at the woman that I love and not worry about anything because I know the world is a bit safer because arrogant people are out there doing what they do to make the world a safer and better place. It is that state of grace that things are fought for. Anyone that looks into their own heart and sees that state of peace and happiness tranquility and love knows that there is usually sacrifice involved. One must weigh that sacrifice with what can be gained. I guess though love is not a good enough reason to fight for anything for some. How arrogant of me and us to want such lofty things. I once said on one of my other pages that "I do not go where the path leads. Instead I make my own, and leave a trail" And those of you who have known me longer than others of you might recognize the "Walking between the darkness and the light." I find it my responsibility not only to bring the
darkness down when needed, but also to reflect the light of my being amongst those around me and the world so it can be spread in hopes that in some small way it can change the world for all of us.
sure that the food provided by us gets through to the people who need it most and protect them from
warlords who would starve them to death to keep them pacified in their twisted way of waging genocide to keep their rule over their country. "Mogadishu ring a bell anyone" How dare we, once a conflict has occurred in one country, want to help rebuild that country so that it can rule itself in relative peace. How arrogant is it of us to want to keep our children safe and healthy by taxing our own people in our own country to build children’s hospitals and provide services like amber alerts all over the nation so that when a child does go missing, there is more than a fighting chance that said child will be found alive and unharmed. How dare our country have a three strikes law whereby violent repeat offenders will go to prison for life without the possibility of parole. How dare we impose a tax on our own people so that people with disabilities and impoverished people in our own country might be helped out in whatever way is needed so that they can be given a fighting chance to survive, and perhaps even thrive here as well. How dare we and how arrogant of us to have the ability to speak out against or for whatever we see fit. Even if it is against our own political head of our nation. It is arrogant of us to think that we can get away with such actions. But yet we can and do every fucking second of the day. Why is this you might ask? Because we are Americans and YES we are arrogant and YES we are very proud of our arrogance. It is arrogant to want to change the world for the better. But it is also our arrogance and our determination and our negativity towards giving up fighting for things that need to be fought for that allows us to change things for the better. I am arrogant, and I am very proud of it. If someone else perceives that as ugly, then that is their hang-up and I won't be faulted for it. I am used to being perceived as someone who loves a good fight. This is true in every sense of the word. I love a good debate, and a good fight. I love to win at whatever it may be and I hate to lose. But then again. I only fight when it is something worth fighting for. Other people and other nations as people who fight for frivolous goals usually perceive us as individuals. These are only meaningless to you because you do not wish to step forward to get involved. You always think "let so and so handle it, then when we do, you fault us for it and call us arrogant."
Let me sum you up then you can call us arrogant every second of the day for the actions that we take and I will continue to thank you for it. I will call you cowards for the inaction that you take,
"You are quite welcome" I guess I am arrogant to want to change the world and fight for things that have meaning, such as change, and growth. I guess I am arrogant to want change for the better so that when I do have a child, the world will be a better place. Somewhere where they can grow up and thrive and learn and be happy. I am arrogant to want to be able to see the smile on my child’s face and be able to look at them and know that I did my best to make the world a wonderful place for them to grow up. I can look at the woman that I love and not worry about anything because I know the world is a bit safer because arrogant people are out there doing what they do to make the world a safer and better place. It is that state of grace that things are fought for. Anyone that looks into their own heart and sees that state of peace and happiness tranquility and love knows that there is usually sacrifice involved. One must weigh that sacrifice with what can be gained. I guess though love is not a good enough reason to fight for anything for some. How arrogant of me and us to want such lofty things. I once said on one of my other pages that "I do not go where the path leads. Instead I make my own, and leave a trail" And those of you who have known me longer than others of you might recognize the "Walking between the darkness and the light." I find it my responsibility not only to bring the
darkness down when needed, but also to reflect the light of my being amongst those around me and the world so it can be spread in hopes that in some small way it can change the world for all of us.
Nosce Te Ipsum "Know Thyself"
Happy New Years Fuckers, Once again, I have awakened from my cathartic slumber to pose yet another issue to those of you who stand on the precipice of life questioning the meaning of it all.
The problem with this arises when one individual expects another individual, other than themselves
to be able to answer that question for them. Since everyone is different, the question of the
meaning of life becomes specific to every individual, and therefore cannot be properly answered
by another person. It pains me to see people outside of their center, trying to be something they aren't.
We as individuals, see examples of this every day. Some of us at one time or another can even say we
have been good examples of this ourselves. Constantly people try to do things to please others at
great sacrifice to themselves and their spirits. You see it in people trying to "Keep up with the Jonses", or better yet trying to create a label for themselves, or trying to remove one. It was once said that water finds its own level. So it is with every living being. Most of the more intelligent creatures
on this planet know this and rely on instinct and exist within their base nature and do not try to
change it. Not to say that change is not good, by all means one should always do their best to expand
themselves and evolve. What I mean to say is in very blunt terms is if your daily issues and actions
do not match up with the image that you are trying to portray, then you are not living the life you
truly could. You are sacrificing your happiness, your principles, and ultimately, your future.
An individuals thoughts, deeds and actions should always match the image of who you really are.
Others will always have their own opinions of you, sometimes those opinions will be off base,
in which case, who cares? The only people that truly matter other than yourself are those who have
gotten to know you and understand who you really are without making rash decisions and conclusions. I was originally going to title this "Reflecting The Light" but as we all know I, as well as everyone else have two distinct sides to our nature. Positive and negative, good and evil, light and dark. I can only reflect whatever side of myself is presently acting within my own nature. Usually I would have to say that would be a dark light. I have rarely seen recently, beings of any pure light within their spirits. I have once or twice had an opportunity within the past six months been in the presence of this type of purity which for a moment left me in a state of grace. And perhaps for these moments in my life, I have become a bit of a better person for it. I believe that if I as well as everyone
else begin to rely on their true natures and instincts, the world would become a bit of a better place.
Everyone has their own hopes and dreams for the future and the rest of their lives. If every being
did not get sidetracked from these, perhaps we as a collective would be able to reflect a bit more
light and a little less darkness. To get back to nosce te ipsum; the only person who can really answer
the meaning of life is you. The only way to answer this is to be true to yourself and be the person
you are meant to be, not who everyone else expects you to be. This is what I am striving for more in my life and it is my wish for everyone else in this life to do the same.
The problem with this arises when one individual expects another individual, other than themselves
to be able to answer that question for them. Since everyone is different, the question of the
meaning of life becomes specific to every individual, and therefore cannot be properly answered
by another person. It pains me to see people outside of their center, trying to be something they aren't.
We as individuals, see examples of this every day. Some of us at one time or another can even say we
have been good examples of this ourselves. Constantly people try to do things to please others at
great sacrifice to themselves and their spirits. You see it in people trying to "Keep up with the Jonses", or better yet trying to create a label for themselves, or trying to remove one. It was once said that water finds its own level. So it is with every living being. Most of the more intelligent creatures
on this planet know this and rely on instinct and exist within their base nature and do not try to
change it. Not to say that change is not good, by all means one should always do their best to expand
themselves and evolve. What I mean to say is in very blunt terms is if your daily issues and actions
do not match up with the image that you are trying to portray, then you are not living the life you
truly could. You are sacrificing your happiness, your principles, and ultimately, your future.
An individuals thoughts, deeds and actions should always match the image of who you really are.
Others will always have their own opinions of you, sometimes those opinions will be off base,
in which case, who cares? The only people that truly matter other than yourself are those who have
gotten to know you and understand who you really are without making rash decisions and conclusions. I was originally going to title this "Reflecting The Light" but as we all know I, as well as everyone else have two distinct sides to our nature. Positive and negative, good and evil, light and dark. I can only reflect whatever side of myself is presently acting within my own nature. Usually I would have to say that would be a dark light. I have rarely seen recently, beings of any pure light within their spirits. I have once or twice had an opportunity within the past six months been in the presence of this type of purity which for a moment left me in a state of grace. And perhaps for these moments in my life, I have become a bit of a better person for it. I believe that if I as well as everyone
else begin to rely on their true natures and instincts, the world would become a bit of a better place.
Everyone has their own hopes and dreams for the future and the rest of their lives. If every being
did not get sidetracked from these, perhaps we as a collective would be able to reflect a bit more
light and a little less darkness. To get back to nosce te ipsum; the only person who can really answer
the meaning of life is you. The only way to answer this is to be true to yourself and be the person
you are meant to be, not who everyone else expects you to be. This is what I am striving for more in my life and it is my wish for everyone else in this life to do the same.
Chaos Within.
In the immortal words of System. Everybody's going to the party, have a real good time.
Dancing in the desert, blowing up the sunshine. That is how I feel right about now a bit anarchistic.
I have always had a perpensiy towards attracting trouble "not the bad kind mind you."
Although for the past month, I have been busy with nothing but work and for the life of me for the
past two weeks I have felt like a caged animal scrambling to find a way out of that cage. What is
it that I am searching for? Vacation, release from the constant grind of a job that I despise?
Distance from a city that I love and that I would not leave for the life of me? Perhaps someone new
people to spend my free time with "what there is of that." Think I will just take another road trip
up north to get a recharge. Either way I definately feel BYOB right now.
Dancing in the desert, blowing up the sunshine. That is how I feel right about now a bit anarchistic.
I have always had a perpensiy towards attracting trouble "not the bad kind mind you."
Although for the past month, I have been busy with nothing but work and for the life of me for the
past two weeks I have felt like a caged animal scrambling to find a way out of that cage. What is
it that I am searching for? Vacation, release from the constant grind of a job that I despise?
Distance from a city that I love and that I would not leave for the life of me? Perhaps someone new
people to spend my free time with "what there is of that." Think I will just take another road trip
up north to get a recharge. Either way I definately feel BYOB right now.
Dumb Motherfuckers!!!!
You know, I have been getting sick of hearing the same shit from different people about how much life sucks and how they wish it would just end. To these brilliant individuals, I will leave you with this little proverb from one of my favorite poems and also from one of the best movies ever made. The dead know only one thing, that it is better to be alive. True, life is not all cute cuddly little puppies. Life is hard and life does truly suck at times, but it is in those moments that we find out what type of character we truly possess. In the time I have spent on this little rock I have seen friends die,
lost someone I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with, had multiple regrets of actions
I had not taken, of things I had not said, of goals I had not accomplished. But still I continue through
this life. I learn from the mistakes that I have made, and make a conscious effort not to make them again and to correct the path. So this I say to those who think that life is not worth living. Suck it the
fuck up, and walk that shit off!!! You might find out that the end of the world is not that bad and
the problems that you think are insurmountable are just little speed bumps that you have to run over
at full speed to make it to your destination. Everyone has something to contribute to the world or
the people who are close to them. You just have to open your eyes to see it.
Silent Demise
Speak of spirits, speak of names Of those whose souls were e'er retained By the planet, after death Alive, aware, but without breath Speak of hopeful, eager minds Ones that died before their time Speak of parents, and of graves Of those who will never be saved Speak of forests, cool and green Housing corpses, never seen Explorers lost, and never found Decayed, upon the frozen ground Speak of memorials, proud and tall Dedicated to those who fall Perhaps it'll give unknown soldiers peace Or perhaps even final release Wandering souls, never sleeping, Watching, waiting, sighing, weeping; The dead know one thing, besides their plight; They know that it's better to be alive.
Lastly I had a friend of mine just ship off to the big sandbox Monday and another proverb comes to mind Only the dead have seen the end of war-Plato
Come back safe bro.
lost someone I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with, had multiple regrets of actions
I had not taken, of things I had not said, of goals I had not accomplished. But still I continue through
this life. I learn from the mistakes that I have made, and make a conscious effort not to make them again and to correct the path. So this I say to those who think that life is not worth living. Suck it the
fuck up, and walk that shit off!!! You might find out that the end of the world is not that bad and
the problems that you think are insurmountable are just little speed bumps that you have to run over
at full speed to make it to your destination. Everyone has something to contribute to the world or
the people who are close to them. You just have to open your eyes to see it.
Silent Demise
Speak of spirits, speak of names Of those whose souls were e'er retained By the planet, after death Alive, aware, but without breath Speak of hopeful, eager minds Ones that died before their time Speak of parents, and of graves Of those who will never be saved Speak of forests, cool and green Housing corpses, never seen Explorers lost, and never found Decayed, upon the frozen ground Speak of memorials, proud and tall Dedicated to those who fall Perhaps it'll give unknown soldiers peace Or perhaps even final release Wandering souls, never sleeping, Watching, waiting, sighing, weeping; The dead know one thing, besides their plight; They know that it's better to be alive.
Lastly I had a friend of mine just ship off to the big sandbox Monday and another proverb comes to mind Only the dead have seen the end of war-Plato
Come back safe bro.
Adaptation.
If its been said once, its been said a million times kids, everything has been done before.
I don't care what type of spin is put on something, someone, somewhere, at some time has said,
or pulled the same shit you are about to pull and call your own. That does not mean that there
is not room to improve on some of your words or actions because there is always room to adapt the
ideas, theories and actions from your past or someone elses. Trust me, I think I have lived enough
to know this lesson by heart. I have lived, loved, lost, learned, made mistakes, corrected those
mistakes and continued to live my life in the best possible form I could in order to make it through
this cosmic game with the least amount of battle scars as possible. I came across a little piece of
advice for everyone in the likeliest of places last night after eating a bit of Chinese food last night.
My fortune read, "Your place in the path of life is in the driver's seat." How ironic that this is where
everyones place in the path of life is, or for the most part should be. For the past week or so I have
been discussing in depth life, love, growth, and the future with someone that I love and someone who
is very special to me. I have seen life, both mine and hers, and the changes that have occured within
each of us. With mistakes come lessons, within those lessons people learn correct paths within ourselves. I have watched the paths of my life ebb and flow from one point to another and have had to jump from one to another to stay within the boundaries I have set for myself. There have been instances where I have strayed from a path and found my spirit not in the right place it should be. Straying from a path can leave one corrupted by forces outside of oneself and leave you feeling hollow. I have felt that more than once and have learned that this occurs only when I am not living up to who I am. In essence during these brief occasions I turned myself into someone I did not know and eventually, did not like. I have learned to recognize these times usually before they occur and stop them before I allow them to take hold of my being and corrupt the person I have set myself to evolve to. I only put this out here for one reason. Love me, hate me, praise me, condemn me, whatever you choose to do don't ignore me or the message. Those of you who lave learned to adapt your life, and the paths that you take within it will flourish within your own realm of being. Those who do not will not live to see yourself evolve to be the being that you were set here to be. I think another great quote I have thought about tonight needed to be adapted to fit my life. I live my life a moment at a time. It is within these moments that I am truly free.
I don't care what type of spin is put on something, someone, somewhere, at some time has said,
or pulled the same shit you are about to pull and call your own. That does not mean that there
is not room to improve on some of your words or actions because there is always room to adapt the
ideas, theories and actions from your past or someone elses. Trust me, I think I have lived enough
to know this lesson by heart. I have lived, loved, lost, learned, made mistakes, corrected those
mistakes and continued to live my life in the best possible form I could in order to make it through
this cosmic game with the least amount of battle scars as possible. I came across a little piece of
advice for everyone in the likeliest of places last night after eating a bit of Chinese food last night.
My fortune read, "Your place in the path of life is in the driver's seat." How ironic that this is where
everyones place in the path of life is, or for the most part should be. For the past week or so I have
been discussing in depth life, love, growth, and the future with someone that I love and someone who
is very special to me. I have seen life, both mine and hers, and the changes that have occured within
each of us. With mistakes come lessons, within those lessons people learn correct paths within ourselves. I have watched the paths of my life ebb and flow from one point to another and have had to jump from one to another to stay within the boundaries I have set for myself. There have been instances where I have strayed from a path and found my spirit not in the right place it should be. Straying from a path can leave one corrupted by forces outside of oneself and leave you feeling hollow. I have felt that more than once and have learned that this occurs only when I am not living up to who I am. In essence during these brief occasions I turned myself into someone I did not know and eventually, did not like. I have learned to recognize these times usually before they occur and stop them before I allow them to take hold of my being and corrupt the person I have set myself to evolve to. I only put this out here for one reason. Love me, hate me, praise me, condemn me, whatever you choose to do don't ignore me or the message. Those of you who lave learned to adapt your life, and the paths that you take within it will flourish within your own realm of being. Those who do not will not live to see yourself evolve to be the being that you were set here to be. I think another great quote I have thought about tonight needed to be adapted to fit my life. I live my life a moment at a time. It is within these moments that I am truly free.
NPC- And I am not talking about non player character here kids...
OK so here is my not politically correct rant for the month. Let me start off by saying to everyone
Happy Cinco de Mayo fuckers. I say this due to the fact that someone in LA had a pretty fucked up
sense of humor when the billboard for the Spanish language television station KRCA went up. Written across the bottom of said billboard was Los Angeles, CA with the California crossed out and replaced with Mexico. Ha-Ha, very funny motherfuckers. The last time I checked there was a border that separates Mexico from the rest of our what was once a great state. In my opinion it still is give or take a few minor problems. Is it me? Am I the the only asshole who finds a problem with the fact that Mexico will not allow the rest of the US to purchase land in their country. A number of years ago Mexico enacted a plan to only allow ninety-nine year leases of land in their country and they reserved the right to cancel the lease of said land at any time they pleased. People who once had bought land in Mexico were for one reason or another booted off said land without a valid reason. And yet day after day or borders are crossed by undocumented immigrants. We have even gone as far as to place water stations along trails known to be followed "for humanity purposes" so that individuals wishing to try to cross the border illegally stand a better chance of doing so. Meanwhile due to the fact that the immigrants are undocumented, California bears the burden of supporting most of the costs of providing for these people. When I say California, I mean most of us who live here. Every paycheck I see a good chunk of it taken out by the state and federal government to provide a source of income for those unable to work in this country. I am not singling out immigrants since I know there is a percentage of the population who take advantage of the system as well. But the facts still stand folks, if you cannot provide a source of documentation of who you are and where you live, you usually cannot obtain a decent job. Point two I have to make is that when the INS, Border Patrol, or any other entity cracks down on said population, the ACLU is not far behind to stick their nose in where it does not belong. I say this for the simple reason that the last time I checked the ACLU stands
for the AMERICAN CIVIL LIBERTIES UNION. Again is it me, or undocumented immigrants by law not citizens of the US? So what the hell are they doing whining and complaining that immigrants are being unfairly persecuted. Believe me folks, I feel unfairly persecuted every time someone turns their nose up at me or degrades me just for the simple fact that I do not comprehend Spanish. Check the papers recently? Quite a few positions that are offered nowadays require you to be bilingual. Being that I live in Los Angeles I come across a handful of residents that are unable to speak English. I do not feel myself or anyone else who lives within the US should be considered less marketable just because we do not speak spanish fluently. And before, you even try to judge me, take a look at the facts. I would not consider myself racist just because I believe the way that I do about this one situation, I believe everyone should be afforded every single god given right to freedom that is afforded to them by the US, "as long as they are here legally." I do love other people from other cultures, "an ex of mine whom I loved very much is hispanic" and consider everyone to be equal. I just have a problem with becoming a minority in my own state due to an influx of undocumented individuals who seem to think that I owe them a living, and then spit on me for not speaking a language which up until about ten years ago, was not a requirement for living here. PS, just so ya don't think I am totally against today, one good thing did come of it all historically speaking. The Mexican Army did kick the living shit out of the French. That and some damned
fine food of course.
Happy Cinco de Mayo fuckers. I say this due to the fact that someone in LA had a pretty fucked up
sense of humor when the billboard for the Spanish language television station KRCA went up. Written across the bottom of said billboard was Los Angeles, CA with the California crossed out and replaced with Mexico. Ha-Ha, very funny motherfuckers. The last time I checked there was a border that separates Mexico from the rest of our what was once a great state. In my opinion it still is give or take a few minor problems. Is it me? Am I the the only asshole who finds a problem with the fact that Mexico will not allow the rest of the US to purchase land in their country. A number of years ago Mexico enacted a plan to only allow ninety-nine year leases of land in their country and they reserved the right to cancel the lease of said land at any time they pleased. People who once had bought land in Mexico were for one reason or another booted off said land without a valid reason. And yet day after day or borders are crossed by undocumented immigrants. We have even gone as far as to place water stations along trails known to be followed "for humanity purposes" so that individuals wishing to try to cross the border illegally stand a better chance of doing so. Meanwhile due to the fact that the immigrants are undocumented, California bears the burden of supporting most of the costs of providing for these people. When I say California, I mean most of us who live here. Every paycheck I see a good chunk of it taken out by the state and federal government to provide a source of income for those unable to work in this country. I am not singling out immigrants since I know there is a percentage of the population who take advantage of the system as well. But the facts still stand folks, if you cannot provide a source of documentation of who you are and where you live, you usually cannot obtain a decent job. Point two I have to make is that when the INS, Border Patrol, or any other entity cracks down on said population, the ACLU is not far behind to stick their nose in where it does not belong. I say this for the simple reason that the last time I checked the ACLU stands
for the AMERICAN CIVIL LIBERTIES UNION. Again is it me, or undocumented immigrants by law not citizens of the US? So what the hell are they doing whining and complaining that immigrants are being unfairly persecuted. Believe me folks, I feel unfairly persecuted every time someone turns their nose up at me or degrades me just for the simple fact that I do not comprehend Spanish. Check the papers recently? Quite a few positions that are offered nowadays require you to be bilingual. Being that I live in Los Angeles I come across a handful of residents that are unable to speak English. I do not feel myself or anyone else who lives within the US should be considered less marketable just because we do not speak spanish fluently. And before, you even try to judge me, take a look at the facts. I would not consider myself racist just because I believe the way that I do about this one situation, I believe everyone should be afforded every single god given right to freedom that is afforded to them by the US, "as long as they are here legally." I do love other people from other cultures, "an ex of mine whom I loved very much is hispanic" and consider everyone to be equal. I just have a problem with becoming a minority in my own state due to an influx of undocumented individuals who seem to think that I owe them a living, and then spit on me for not speaking a language which up until about ten years ago, was not a requirement for living here. PS, just so ya don't think I am totally against today, one good thing did come of it all historically speaking. The Mexican Army did kick the living shit out of the French. That and some damned
fine food of course.
Memories of a life gone by.
This blog is currently in the works over this weekend, so stand the fuck by boys and girls.
The past two blogs were a bit rushed and felt rather hollow to me. This was confirmed by someone
who knows me really well that they seemed a bit forced. Therefore I have taken this weekend to let
things just flow and by Tues there should be more here than this little tidbit. And no this doesn't
have anything to do with past life experiences, unless you decide to count a past life experience as
something that occurs within a span of a couple of years for you. Ciao kids .
The past two blogs were a bit rushed and felt rather hollow to me. This was confirmed by someone
who knows me really well that they seemed a bit forced. Therefore I have taken this weekend to let
things just flow and by Tues there should be more here than this little tidbit. And no this doesn't
have anything to do with past life experiences, unless you decide to count a past life experience as
something that occurs within a span of a couple of years for you. Ciao kids .
I think that this best fits my mood.
As I have been meditating over the past couple of days I was listening to a song tonight that really
hit home regarding a number of issues I have had with myself and a few other situations and people
within my life. Remember boys and girls, some things that feel good does not mean that they are good for you.
Up To The Roof
All I see, its not for me what I want you have, not got try to use the things
you sold me no matter what the cost try to go the way you told me but each time I got lost the stairs
didn't lead me anywhere I'm taking the fire escape, up to the roof don't care if its not the way,
you'll find the truth time to make this climb, to rise above.... This room and all of you who say I
should do like you would try to live the life you sold me no matter what the cost try to walk the
way you told me but each time I got lost the stairs didn't lead me anywhere I'm taking the fire escape,
up to the roof Don't care if it's not the way you'll find the truth, and when I get up that high I don't
know what I'll find but I'd rather look at the sky than wonder why I let you take my time time to make
this climb to rise above.... I'm taking the fire escape up to the roof don't care if its not the way
you'll find the truth and when I get up that high I don't know what I'll find but I'd rather look at
the sky than wonder why I let you take my time Time to make this climb to rise above Time to make this
climb to rise above.....
Blue Man Group/Tracy Bonham-The Complex
hit home regarding a number of issues I have had with myself and a few other situations and people
within my life. Remember boys and girls, some things that feel good does not mean that they are good for you.
Up To The Roof
All I see, its not for me what I want you have, not got try to use the things
you sold me no matter what the cost try to go the way you told me but each time I got lost the stairs
didn't lead me anywhere I'm taking the fire escape, up to the roof don't care if its not the way,
you'll find the truth time to make this climb, to rise above.... This room and all of you who say I
should do like you would try to live the life you sold me no matter what the cost try to walk the
way you told me but each time I got lost the stairs didn't lead me anywhere I'm taking the fire escape,
up to the roof Don't care if it's not the way you'll find the truth, and when I get up that high I don't
know what I'll find but I'd rather look at the sky than wonder why I let you take my time time to make
this climb to rise above.... I'm taking the fire escape up to the roof don't care if its not the way
you'll find the truth and when I get up that high I don't know what I'll find but I'd rather look at
the sky than wonder why I let you take my time Time to make this climb to rise above Time to make this
climb to rise above.....
Blue Man Group/Tracy Bonham-The Complex
Something More...
I think my current state could best be summed up by something I once heard. "How do you begin to pick
up the threads of a past life when in your heart you begin to understand there is no going back.
There are some things that time cannot mend some things that run so deep and take hold."
These things change one to the core of their being. Life itself is more than a fucking read through,
it needs loved completely and lived intensely. One should be inspired to do more with the life they are
given, to accomplish whatever they set out to complete. One should strive for more, to expand their
horizons, to evolve into a more complete being. All of us have a responsibility to ourselves, and to
others around us wether we see it or not. We are all accountable for situations, be they around us,
or around the world. Problems do not occur randomly, there are events set in motion by situations,
usually caused by an individual or group and then brushed off, or worse blame is shifted to another
thereby no one taking responsibility. Rollins was right, we have become a disposable culture. Look at
the world around us, most everything is disposable in this day in age. We place little value in the
things we consume and that mode of thinking boys and girls is beginning to transfer over to people
themselves. Some individuals have begun to devalue life itself be it their own life, or the lives of
others. My question is why has it gotten to this point with some? Do they not see that life is priceless?
That everyone should grab onto life and squeeze with both hands and get everything they can out of it
before it is over. It must be just me again spouting off not just for myself, but for others as well
so that they to will attain an awareness of what life's meaning is to them, so that they then may use
that knowledge as a source of inspiration for their own life. Some people live in the present, even
cling to it like it is something so precious that it should not be shed, not realizing that the present
itself is dying. One must live for the future, and should have the foresight to see what is needed.
I don't give a fuck what others might say about "no one person can fix the worlds problems."
Many of the worlds great movements of thought and action, have flowed from the work of a single person, each time a person stands up for an ideal, or acts to improve the lot of others, or strikes out against things that are in-just. They send out a ripple of hope for others, My hope is that this ripple will continue throughout the rest of humanity. I have been one of those in the past that has seen the glass as half empty, that has not really worked out well so I am flipping the switch and trying to see things the way they really should be seen. Boys and girls, the glass is half full and should be on its way to overflowing. Most people have seen things as they are and said why. I am dreaming of things now that have never happened and say why not. Is this being rebellious or even renegade? Perhaps, but what of it. Everything must have a beginning, I might as well be a start of one of those. With the proper inspiration, I shall be. Here is to hoping that you are as well.
up the threads of a past life when in your heart you begin to understand there is no going back.
There are some things that time cannot mend some things that run so deep and take hold."
These things change one to the core of their being. Life itself is more than a fucking read through,
it needs loved completely and lived intensely. One should be inspired to do more with the life they are
given, to accomplish whatever they set out to complete. One should strive for more, to expand their
horizons, to evolve into a more complete being. All of us have a responsibility to ourselves, and to
others around us wether we see it or not. We are all accountable for situations, be they around us,
or around the world. Problems do not occur randomly, there are events set in motion by situations,
usually caused by an individual or group and then brushed off, or worse blame is shifted to another
thereby no one taking responsibility. Rollins was right, we have become a disposable culture. Look at
the world around us, most everything is disposable in this day in age. We place little value in the
things we consume and that mode of thinking boys and girls is beginning to transfer over to people
themselves. Some individuals have begun to devalue life itself be it their own life, or the lives of
others. My question is why has it gotten to this point with some? Do they not see that life is priceless?
That everyone should grab onto life and squeeze with both hands and get everything they can out of it
before it is over. It must be just me again spouting off not just for myself, but for others as well
so that they to will attain an awareness of what life's meaning is to them, so that they then may use
that knowledge as a source of inspiration for their own life. Some people live in the present, even
cling to it like it is something so precious that it should not be shed, not realizing that the present
itself is dying. One must live for the future, and should have the foresight to see what is needed.
I don't give a fuck what others might say about "no one person can fix the worlds problems."
Many of the worlds great movements of thought and action, have flowed from the work of a single person, each time a person stands up for an ideal, or acts to improve the lot of others, or strikes out against things that are in-just. They send out a ripple of hope for others, My hope is that this ripple will continue throughout the rest of humanity. I have been one of those in the past that has seen the glass as half empty, that has not really worked out well so I am flipping the switch and trying to see things the way they really should be seen. Boys and girls, the glass is half full and should be on its way to overflowing. Most people have seen things as they are and said why. I am dreaming of things now that have never happened and say why not. Is this being rebellious or even renegade? Perhaps, but what of it. Everything must have a beginning, I might as well be a start of one of those. With the proper inspiration, I shall be. Here is to hoping that you are as well.
Nature of ones being.
Recently within the past couple of weeks I have been going through a bit of a metamorphosis partially due to my eyes being open and taking in the nature of those around me. When I say those, I refer to both people and groups, and actions taken by these individuals. People going around in their own little worlds living their lives within their bubble they call a universe without truly opening themselves something larger than themselves. And no I am not going religious on anyone. When I say something larger than themselves, I mean to say something bigger than their superficial nature. Everyone has one, it just takes an individual with strength of character to break through that to establish stonger connections with things, and people, and causes, and ideals that surround them every minute of the Going through the motions of life isn't enough for the spirit of a person. It is merely existing. Existence isn't enough. It may be for some, but it isn't for me. Nor is it for people that I have gotten to know and continue to get to know. These are people who have something to offer to themselves and to the rest of society. These people are the type of individuals who strive to develop lasting connections with everything that surround them, rather than just being preoccupied with themselves only. I guess I have gotten sick and fucking tired of petty groups and people who think that the rest of us owe them something without needing to give anything back. It isn't a healthy way to go through life boys and girls. While it is true that everyone is owed something, it is not true that everyone else owes us something and we deserve everything with little to no effort. We owe ourselves something. That something is the life we have been given. It is a gift that can only be enriched by fostering strong connections with things and people around us. These connections help foster stonger ties to one's family, one's friends, one's significant others , and to oneself. Without a higher purpose in ones life other than oneself, life is just a waste of time. How do you want to spend the rest of yours is the question.
Final Inspection.
Sorry kids, but this had to be reposted with a bit of insight of my own at the end.
THE FINAL INSPECTION
The soldier stood and faced God, which must always come to pass. He hoped his shoes were shining,
just as brightly as his brass. "Step forward now, you soldier, How shall I deal with you? Have you
always turned the other cheek? To My Church have you been true?" The soldier squared his shoulders and said, "no, Lord, I guess I ain't. Because those of us who carry guns, can't always be a saint. I've had to work most Sundays, and at times my talk was tough. And sometimes I've been violent, because the world is awfully rough. But, I never took a penny, that wasn't mine to keep... Though I worked a lot of overtime, when the bills got just too steep. And I never passed a cry for help, though at times I shook with fear. And sometimes, God, forgive me, I've wept unmanly tears. I know I don't deserve a place, among the people here. They never wanted me around, except to calm their fears. If you've a place for me here, Lord, it needn't be so grand. I never expected or had too much, but if you don't, I'll understand." There was a silence all around the throne, where the saints had often trod. As the soldier waited quietly, for the judgment of his God. "Step forward now, you soldier, you've borne your burdens well.Walk peacefully on Heaven's streets, you've done your time in Hell.
"Author Unknown"
Try never to forget, it is your military force, not the reporter who has given us the freedom of the press. It is your military force, not the poet, who has given us the freedom of speech. It is your military force, not the protesters and demonstrators that gave us the freedoms to protest and demonstrate. It is your military force, not the politicians that ensures our right to "Life, Liberty and the Pursuit of Happiness." It is your military force who salutes the flag, who serves beneath the flag, and whose coffin is draped by the flag, who allows the radicals to burn the flag. If you care to offer the smallest token of recognition and appreciation for your military force, please pass this on and pray for our men and women who have served and are currently serving our country and pray for those who gave the ultimate sacrifice for freedom.
As I sat here reading this post silently from a request of someone on here, I sat here crying thinking
of everything that has been sacrificed for the greater good of people in this country. If ya think this
makes me sound weak, you can go fuck yourself. Far too often people take things for granted. Some of you talk about your freedoms, yet take for granted the fact that there are men and women out there who are fighting for your freedoms while sacrificing some of their own freedoms in the process. Some of you talk about how patriotic you are and show off your patriotism by having your flags waving in your front yard and bumper stickers showing your support for the troops after 9-11 occured "mostly in my opinion because your neighbors have done it and you are trying to prove something to everyone that is watching." I ask you, where was that patriotism before, the military has always been present in the world, doing what is needing to be done yet had been taken for granted before then. You speak of your support for the troops yet despise actions that are taken by the them because you feel it is unnecessary and does not accomplish anything relevant. You speak out against the military and protest its policies by stating "War is not the answer," yet you stand by idlly and fail to come up with solutions to the worlds problems and conflicts. You take for granted all of your freedoms and the people who stand over you and tell you, "Don't worry, nothing will happen to you while I am here. Not on my watch." You take for granted freedom to go about your daily lives, because you have the peace of mind that nothing will happen to you due to the actions of others who are willing to risk their own lives. You take for granted that there are those who are willing to fight for your freedoms, for your safety, for the country in which you live. You go around oblivious to the facts of what we really are fighting for. We fight for those who want freedom, we fight for those who are either unable, or unwilling to fight for themselves because the price is too great, we fight for the men and women who fight right along side of us. We fight because there are some things that are worth fighting for, there are some things that are worth the sacrifice that is made every fucking day by the men and women of the Armed Forces. These things that are worth fighting for are our beliefs and convictions. You can sleep well in this knowledge, that there are thousands of men and women risking everything they have making sure that millions of us can go about our lives so that we can live by our
convictions and hopefully fight for our beliefs. Take that to heart.
If you end up reading this and it does not touch you in some way, then you have no fucking soul.
THE FINAL INSPECTION
The soldier stood and faced God, which must always come to pass. He hoped his shoes were shining,
just as brightly as his brass. "Step forward now, you soldier, How shall I deal with you? Have you
always turned the other cheek? To My Church have you been true?" The soldier squared his shoulders and said, "no, Lord, I guess I ain't. Because those of us who carry guns, can't always be a saint. I've had to work most Sundays, and at times my talk was tough. And sometimes I've been violent, because the world is awfully rough. But, I never took a penny, that wasn't mine to keep... Though I worked a lot of overtime, when the bills got just too steep. And I never passed a cry for help, though at times I shook with fear. And sometimes, God, forgive me, I've wept unmanly tears. I know I don't deserve a place, among the people here. They never wanted me around, except to calm their fears. If you've a place for me here, Lord, it needn't be so grand. I never expected or had too much, but if you don't, I'll understand." There was a silence all around the throne, where the saints had often trod. As the soldier waited quietly, for the judgment of his God. "Step forward now, you soldier, you've borne your burdens well.Walk peacefully on Heaven's streets, you've done your time in Hell.
"Author Unknown"
Try never to forget, it is your military force, not the reporter who has given us the freedom of the press. It is your military force, not the poet, who has given us the freedom of speech. It is your military force, not the protesters and demonstrators that gave us the freedoms to protest and demonstrate. It is your military force, not the politicians that ensures our right to "Life, Liberty and the Pursuit of Happiness." It is your military force who salutes the flag, who serves beneath the flag, and whose coffin is draped by the flag, who allows the radicals to burn the flag. If you care to offer the smallest token of recognition and appreciation for your military force, please pass this on and pray for our men and women who have served and are currently serving our country and pray for those who gave the ultimate sacrifice for freedom.
As I sat here reading this post silently from a request of someone on here, I sat here crying thinking
of everything that has been sacrificed for the greater good of people in this country. If ya think this
makes me sound weak, you can go fuck yourself. Far too often people take things for granted. Some of you talk about your freedoms, yet take for granted the fact that there are men and women out there who are fighting for your freedoms while sacrificing some of their own freedoms in the process. Some of you talk about how patriotic you are and show off your patriotism by having your flags waving in your front yard and bumper stickers showing your support for the troops after 9-11 occured "mostly in my opinion because your neighbors have done it and you are trying to prove something to everyone that is watching." I ask you, where was that patriotism before, the military has always been present in the world, doing what is needing to be done yet had been taken for granted before then. You speak of your support for the troops yet despise actions that are taken by the them because you feel it is unnecessary and does not accomplish anything relevant. You speak out against the military and protest its policies by stating "War is not the answer," yet you stand by idlly and fail to come up with solutions to the worlds problems and conflicts. You take for granted all of your freedoms and the people who stand over you and tell you, "Don't worry, nothing will happen to you while I am here. Not on my watch." You take for granted freedom to go about your daily lives, because you have the peace of mind that nothing will happen to you due to the actions of others who are willing to risk their own lives. You take for granted that there are those who are willing to fight for your freedoms, for your safety, for the country in which you live. You go around oblivious to the facts of what we really are fighting for. We fight for those who want freedom, we fight for those who are either unable, or unwilling to fight for themselves because the price is too great, we fight for the men and women who fight right along side of us. We fight because there are some things that are worth fighting for, there are some things that are worth the sacrifice that is made every fucking day by the men and women of the Armed Forces. These things that are worth fighting for are our beliefs and convictions. You can sleep well in this knowledge, that there are thousands of men and women risking everything they have making sure that millions of us can go about our lives so that we can live by our
convictions and hopefully fight for our beliefs. Take that to heart.
If you end up reading this and it does not touch you in some way, then you have no fucking soul.
They were fucking right...
The saying "the more things change, the more they stay the same" has never been more true. I have
once again emerged from my self imposed funk to come out the other side a bit more inspired and a
little more focused on the things that are truly important. While I was in that not so happy place
of mine I noticed that I was entirely too focused on some things that despite their "best efforts"
were incapable of changing certain things in their existance one of those things that I had noticed
that hadn't changed was that some of these things that had not changed was a change in their nature.
This disturbed me a bit since I have always known that things change and have a habit of evolving.
Every few months or so there is a part of me that always goes through slight changes and allows me
to realize the areas that need improvement or change. Why can't others realize that part of life is
to evolve? With these changes I have gone through I have noticed that I have to change a few relationships I have had with certain others. Some will grow and flourish, unfortunately for a one or two they will have to be cut out since their importance has turned out to be not so important to one party or another, or perhaps both. Inability to change bothers me about these people and while I might love them I have to let them go live their lives and make their mistakes, I have pointed some things out and their inability to see what I am showing them either shows me that they are happy with the status quo, are afraid of change, or just so involved with inconsequential things that they are unable to see whats beyond. Either way I can't afford to have these things in my life and to these people I want to let you know despite this I do love you, and I hope that you have a wonderful life. Onto other matters I guess that the blow to the head I took by a hundred gallon water heater that I got in a fight with did me some good after all "LMFAO." Things that are planned, looks like I will be getting back into playing guitar again, starting lessons back up next month, probably will be going to a few concerts, there will be a small road trip to visit a few friends. A launch party is also planned sometime within the next two months for the Ruckus Empire site. My writing is back on track as far as the script/novel is concerned and plans for my new site are progressing well. Hopefully if the inspiration holds out, everyone should see a launch party for that in the coming year. God knows that has to happen before Burning Man because I am planning to have perhaps a webcast from the playa happening. Either way there will be quite a few interviews going on with some colorful characters. I have always had a love for studying human nature, what could be better than displaying some of that? Whatever it is that I am experiencing it seems a bit new. Could it be a love of life and a renewed interest in everything around me. Perhaps, although part of me is cautious to go that far with an assumption like that.:P
once again emerged from my self imposed funk to come out the other side a bit more inspired and a
little more focused on the things that are truly important. While I was in that not so happy place
of mine I noticed that I was entirely too focused on some things that despite their "best efforts"
were incapable of changing certain things in their existance one of those things that I had noticed
that hadn't changed was that some of these things that had not changed was a change in their nature.
This disturbed me a bit since I have always known that things change and have a habit of evolving.
Every few months or so there is a part of me that always goes through slight changes and allows me
to realize the areas that need improvement or change. Why can't others realize that part of life is
to evolve? With these changes I have gone through I have noticed that I have to change a few relationships I have had with certain others. Some will grow and flourish, unfortunately for a one or two they will have to be cut out since their importance has turned out to be not so important to one party or another, or perhaps both. Inability to change bothers me about these people and while I might love them I have to let them go live their lives and make their mistakes, I have pointed some things out and their inability to see what I am showing them either shows me that they are happy with the status quo, are afraid of change, or just so involved with inconsequential things that they are unable to see whats beyond. Either way I can't afford to have these things in my life and to these people I want to let you know despite this I do love you, and I hope that you have a wonderful life. Onto other matters I guess that the blow to the head I took by a hundred gallon water heater that I got in a fight with did me some good after all "LMFAO." Things that are planned, looks like I will be getting back into playing guitar again, starting lessons back up next month, probably will be going to a few concerts, there will be a small road trip to visit a few friends. A launch party is also planned sometime within the next two months for the Ruckus Empire site. My writing is back on track as far as the script/novel is concerned and plans for my new site are progressing well. Hopefully if the inspiration holds out, everyone should see a launch party for that in the coming year. God knows that has to happen before Burning Man because I am planning to have perhaps a webcast from the playa happening. Either way there will be quite a few interviews going on with some colorful characters. I have always had a love for studying human nature, what could be better than displaying some of that? Whatever it is that I am experiencing it seems a bit new. Could it be a love of life and a renewed interest in everything around me. Perhaps, although part of me is cautious to go that far with an assumption like that.:P
Friendship.
So today I had a rather interesting talk with a "friend" of mine who stated that " being a friend
is what I do best." Being the eternal optimist I sincerely hope that this is true, the realist in
me though will be watching for proof of it. I have come to the conclusion that I am done with fair
weather friends. Where I have been and what I have done in my life has shown me what real friendship is and what it is worth. Friends always have each others backs, they are also there when you need them. They are truly concerned with your well being, they are there for the good times and the bad. They are there to celebrate with you, they are there for you to lean on. They are there period. When things get dicey they don't run for the hills. Without qusetion, you can depend on them no matter what, and they know they can depend on you. Over the years I have been honored to have had and continue to have a handful of truly great friends who I love and cherish. If one of these people are you, then I have not told you enough how much I appreciate you. And no this isn't me being a chick and going all Hallmark on your ass. I figured that since I have been reevaluating my life and the people I have been associating myself with. I am only interested in people that can understand what true friendship really is and are able to be true friends, all the rest of the fair weather friends need to go find someone else to waste time with.There is saying something, and then there is being able to prove it. Hopefully this person I mentioned before is able to be there. I would really hate to not have her there in my life.
is what I do best." Being the eternal optimist I sincerely hope that this is true, the realist in
me though will be watching for proof of it. I have come to the conclusion that I am done with fair
weather friends. Where I have been and what I have done in my life has shown me what real friendship is and what it is worth. Friends always have each others backs, they are also there when you need them. They are truly concerned with your well being, they are there for the good times and the bad. They are there to celebrate with you, they are there for you to lean on. They are there period. When things get dicey they don't run for the hills. Without qusetion, you can depend on them no matter what, and they know they can depend on you. Over the years I have been honored to have had and continue to have a handful of truly great friends who I love and cherish. If one of these people are you, then I have not told you enough how much I appreciate you. And no this isn't me being a chick and going all Hallmark on your ass. I figured that since I have been reevaluating my life and the people I have been associating myself with. I am only interested in people that can understand what true friendship really is and are able to be true friends, all the rest of the fair weather friends need to go find someone else to waste time with.There is saying something, and then there is being able to prove it. Hopefully this person I mentioned before is able to be there. I would really hate to not have her there in my life.
Never again fuckers.
Looking at things through in distorted light never helps situations any. For a while now I have been
doing just such a thing when it comes to certain things in my life. Well times, they are a changing....
Funny how when it comes to other people in similar situations, who just happen to have similar issues occurring around them you have the perfect solutions and the right answers to those particular situations, but when it comes down to solving those things for yourself the answers aren't quite as clear or the solutions are not as easy. Why is it that a person can be wise in some aspects of their lives and yet at other times be so oblivious to the things that are staring them right in the face. I think
after some introspection after talking with three of my friends who are having the same exact problems all in the same week and giving them the same exact answers they all knew to be true and to be the perfect fix to the issues they were dealing with I kicked myself because I had been going through the same shit with certain things in my life. How is it that someone can make the mistake of thinking if "well if I had this, or if I were with him/her in my life everything would be perfect?" Let me make this perfectly clear to anyone who wants to admit to the truth. If you didn't know this little bit of information by now Sparky buckle up because this ride might be a little rough for ya. The only thing or person that can make you truly complete, or even happy for that matter is yourself..... Too many people "including myself" have fallen into that trap that most people have fallen into. Thinking that insignificant material goods or people will be the thing that will fufill your life. Remember the person that should know you best is the person that is staring right back at you in the mirror and if that person does not know how to be content with themselves or find happiness within themselves, then how the fuck do you think that you will find contentedness or happiness anywhere else? After these conversations I have had within the past week with others and helping them see the light and after listening to the song following this little blog the traps have been illuminated and from now on those traps after being eliminated will get the same message. "You missed me bitch...." Every new day will be another day in life where I will wake up, meditate on where my happiness is in my life at that moment and cultivate that happiness so that I, as well as others around me might have a bit more contentment within their lives. This is the time I will look in the mirror every morning and love what I see.
Whenever I step outside, somebody claims to see the light
It seems to me that all of us have lost our patience.
'cause everyone thinks they're right,
And nobody thinks that there just might
Be more than one road to our final destination
But I'm not ever going to know if I'm right or wrong
'cause we're all going in the same direction
And I'm not sure which way to go because all along
We've been going in the same direction
I'm tired of playing games, of looking for someone else to blame
For all the holes in answers that are clearly showing
For something to fill the space, was all of the time I spent a waste
'cause so many choices point the same way I was going.....
But I'm not ever going to know......
So why does there only have to be one correct philosophy?
I don't want to go and follow you just to end up like one of them
And why are you always telling me what you want me to believe?
I'd like to think that I can go my own way and meet you in the end.
Go my own way and me you in the end.
But I'm not ever going to know..........
doing just such a thing when it comes to certain things in my life. Well times, they are a changing....
Funny how when it comes to other people in similar situations, who just happen to have similar issues occurring around them you have the perfect solutions and the right answers to those particular situations, but when it comes down to solving those things for yourself the answers aren't quite as clear or the solutions are not as easy. Why is it that a person can be wise in some aspects of their lives and yet at other times be so oblivious to the things that are staring them right in the face. I think
after some introspection after talking with three of my friends who are having the same exact problems all in the same week and giving them the same exact answers they all knew to be true and to be the perfect fix to the issues they were dealing with I kicked myself because I had been going through the same shit with certain things in my life. How is it that someone can make the mistake of thinking if "well if I had this, or if I were with him/her in my life everything would be perfect?" Let me make this perfectly clear to anyone who wants to admit to the truth. If you didn't know this little bit of information by now Sparky buckle up because this ride might be a little rough for ya. The only thing or person that can make you truly complete, or even happy for that matter is yourself..... Too many people "including myself" have fallen into that trap that most people have fallen into. Thinking that insignificant material goods or people will be the thing that will fufill your life. Remember the person that should know you best is the person that is staring right back at you in the mirror and if that person does not know how to be content with themselves or find happiness within themselves, then how the fuck do you think that you will find contentedness or happiness anywhere else? After these conversations I have had within the past week with others and helping them see the light and after listening to the song following this little blog the traps have been illuminated and from now on those traps after being eliminated will get the same message. "You missed me bitch...." Every new day will be another day in life where I will wake up, meditate on where my happiness is in my life at that moment and cultivate that happiness so that I, as well as others around me might have a bit more contentment within their lives. This is the time I will look in the mirror every morning and love what I see.
Whenever I step outside, somebody claims to see the light
It seems to me that all of us have lost our patience.
'cause everyone thinks they're right,
And nobody thinks that there just might
Be more than one road to our final destination
But I'm not ever going to know if I'm right or wrong
'cause we're all going in the same direction
And I'm not sure which way to go because all along
We've been going in the same direction
I'm tired of playing games, of looking for someone else to blame
For all the holes in answers that are clearly showing
For something to fill the space, was all of the time I spent a waste
'cause so many choices point the same way I was going.....
But I'm not ever going to know......
So why does there only have to be one correct philosophy?
I don't want to go and follow you just to end up like one of them
And why are you always telling me what you want me to believe?
I'd like to think that I can go my own way and meet you in the end.
Go my own way and me you in the end.
But I'm not ever going to know..........
RIP Jen, we will miss you...
Today I found out that one of my favorite DJ's and a huge fixture in the Los Angeles gothic/industiral
scene died Sunday. It came as a bit of a shock to most everyone that something like that would happen to her. She was too young to leave this earth. We will truly miss ya Jen. At least heaven will get some killer music while ya are there.
scene died Sunday. It came as a bit of a shock to most everyone that something like that would happen to her. She was too young to leave this earth. We will truly miss ya Jen. At least heaven will get some killer music while ya are there.
Thank you very fucking much "once again"
This goes out to the one person who has once again reaffirmed my faith in my ability to call one on
their nature by knowing that when it came to putting words up against actions, they would fall very
short. This person also showed me in this instance that I might have given her too much credit in
being cool enough to show some fucking respect to a long friendship/relationship. I think that it
deserved at least that. Fuck me for being optimistic about this one person. Some fuckers just can't
be trusted. Either way I don't want to totally deal on this girl, one good thing did come of it.
I found out my instincts were dead on...So like I said before, thank you very fucking much.....
Fuck,,,,,GET OFF!!!!!
their nature by knowing that when it came to putting words up against actions, they would fall very
short. This person also showed me in this instance that I might have given her too much credit in
being cool enough to show some fucking respect to a long friendship/relationship. I think that it
deserved at least that. Fuck me for being optimistic about this one person. Some fuckers just can't
be trusted. Either way I don't want to totally deal on this girl, one good thing did come of it.
I found out my instincts were dead on...So like I said before, thank you very fucking much.....
Fuck,,,,,GET OFF!!!!!
No fly zone fuckers...
What a difference a year makes when you are caught up in the chaos of 2005 hundreds of things
happened broke off what was a decent relationship/friendship, went back about two weeks ago and
looked at her picture and thought to myself "what did I see in her again?" Been working on two huge
projects one of which will be launched in June. Really it has been an atypical year in which I had
come to the self realization once again that I have absolutely no tolerance for most people's
petty fucking issues and drama in my life. True every person has their own issues and dramas,
most people have these things under control and most of them are tolerable as long as they don't
make a mountain out of a molehill. Unfortunately I have had around three or so people doing just that
and venturing a little too close to my personal space with said drama. Most of you know that I am one
of the most laid back people in the world but when you fuck with friends of mine that I care about,
then problems arise. I had to call game over on certain people who did just this and got them to the
point of thinking that I hated them and the people that surrounded them. Again most of you who know me know I don't hate people since that emotion takes up way too much of my time and energy. I hate things, not people. I am however very apathetic towards most people since apathy does not waste any energy since you really end up not having any feelings whatsoever towards a being.... My life and personal space has once again become a drama free no fly zone...... Your drama and your issues have to avoid my personal space, if they don't they as well as whoever tries to brings their shit into my life will be shot down. I have far too much shit of my own to deal with any of yours. That is of course, not applied to anyone I like or care about. Those of you who I know, like, care about, or are at least a little intrigued with, this rule does not apply to you.
happened broke off what was a decent relationship/friendship, went back about two weeks ago and
looked at her picture and thought to myself "what did I see in her again?" Been working on two huge
projects one of which will be launched in June. Really it has been an atypical year in which I had
come to the self realization once again that I have absolutely no tolerance for most people's
petty fucking issues and drama in my life. True every person has their own issues and dramas,
most people have these things under control and most of them are tolerable as long as they don't
make a mountain out of a molehill. Unfortunately I have had around three or so people doing just that
and venturing a little too close to my personal space with said drama. Most of you know that I am one
of the most laid back people in the world but when you fuck with friends of mine that I care about,
then problems arise. I had to call game over on certain people who did just this and got them to the
point of thinking that I hated them and the people that surrounded them. Again most of you who know me know I don't hate people since that emotion takes up way too much of my time and energy. I hate things, not people. I am however very apathetic towards most people since apathy does not waste any energy since you really end up not having any feelings whatsoever towards a being.... My life and personal space has once again become a drama free no fly zone...... Your drama and your issues have to avoid my personal space, if they don't they as well as whoever tries to brings their shit into my life will be shot down. I have far too much shit of my own to deal with any of yours. That is of course, not applied to anyone I like or care about. Those of you who I know, like, care about, or are at least a little intrigued with, this rule does not apply to you.
Again with the political incorrectness.
This was going to be a welcome back to one of my favorite spoken word artists to DJing on 103.1
but listening to the news reporting on credible threats to the US Border patrol in regards to people
trying to smuggle people across to the US hiring the help of hired killers to threaten our agents.
Perhaps it is time for the US to get a little tougher on illegal immigration. They wish to hire killers
to try to intimidate our US agents and worse, fine then we let our own highly trained killers do what
they were trained to do. The border between Mexico and the US crosses Camp Pendelton. We have highly motivated Marines on base there wanting nothing more than to put their training towards a practical purpose. Trust me on this I have friends who have been at Pendelton and a few who still are who voice their opinions on this matter as well as a sound plan to drastically cut down on, if not stop border crossings completely. Unfortunately we cannot do this because of the fact that the US has become a kinder, gentler nation that will not do things that may be neccessary to correct things that are going wrong and end up undertaking actions which are flawed and that have more than recently become quite apparent to everyone that said actions create more problems than they solve.
PS Welcome back Henry, glad Harmony In My Head is back on the air.
but listening to the news reporting on credible threats to the US Border patrol in regards to people
trying to smuggle people across to the US hiring the help of hired killers to threaten our agents.
Perhaps it is time for the US to get a little tougher on illegal immigration. They wish to hire killers
to try to intimidate our US agents and worse, fine then we let our own highly trained killers do what
they were trained to do. The border between Mexico and the US crosses Camp Pendelton. We have highly motivated Marines on base there wanting nothing more than to put their training towards a practical purpose. Trust me on this I have friends who have been at Pendelton and a few who still are who voice their opinions on this matter as well as a sound plan to drastically cut down on, if not stop border crossings completely. Unfortunately we cannot do this because of the fact that the US has become a kinder, gentler nation that will not do things that may be neccessary to correct things that are going wrong and end up undertaking actions which are flawed and that have more than recently become quite apparent to everyone that said actions create more problems than they solve.
PS Welcome back Henry, glad Harmony In My Head is back on the air.
Religion vs Spirituality
"Religion is toxic and becomes poison when attached to an agenda." If there was ever a quote that was more true I could not agree more. By religion I am Catholic and will not renounce that by any point, however I do have to disagree with the route many religions are taking including my own. For instance I would think that the higher power"s" that had their hand in creation would something to say about little bipeds like us going around killing eachother in their name. An even smaller example is everyone going around saying that this group is wrong for believing this or that just because it goes against everything another group is diametrically opposed to and furthermore condemming such people to eternal damnation for believing in such a thing. I believe that any higher powers are the only ones to have a say in that due to the fact that people as a whole are flawed. The only thing to have such power would be a creator that was flawless by design. None of us as an individual or group or whole can claim to be such. This is just another reason for my lean towards my spirituality with the higher power on a one on one basis rather than leaning totally on my religion.
It never ceases to amaze me.
So where was I? Ohhhhhhh yes, now I remember.... After enjoying a kickass meal of shrimp scampi,
steak and a kahlua baileys brownie concocted by yours truly and having a rather animated debate on
the way things are and the way they are heading in the world, I have once again come to the unending
conclusion that some people on this speck of dust we call earth are stuck on stupid. I don't fucking
care what your political beliefs are. Agree, disagree with our president and the rest of the powers
that be in his administration and the choices that he makes it really doesn't make a lick of fucking
difference. What I cannot stomach is the lack of consideration and respect that is given to the troops
on the ground and overseas wherever they might be. To anyone who does not respect the amount of work that is done by the military or who choose to disrespect them despite the hardships that they deal with on a daily basis, let it be known that you are all fucking lower than dirt and you need to uncork your skulls from your ass. Just remember that while some of you have decided to use your freedoms in a disrespectful way towards the military, they are the ones who have the inner strength and character to fight for those freedoms without expecting anything in return. In conclusion to this I have one thing to say to those who choose to not respect any troop who serves. SHOW SOME FUCKING RESPECT! And as for anyone serving past or present, thank you very fucking much for the job you do or have done. All of you deserve at least that..... And you deserve this from a grateful American as well. You know the drill, just right click it and open in a new window kids...
http://www.herosalute.com/states/big_game_ad_WMmid.html
steak and a kahlua baileys brownie concocted by yours truly and having a rather animated debate on
the way things are and the way they are heading in the world, I have once again come to the unending
conclusion that some people on this speck of dust we call earth are stuck on stupid. I don't fucking
care what your political beliefs are. Agree, disagree with our president and the rest of the powers
that be in his administration and the choices that he makes it really doesn't make a lick of fucking
difference. What I cannot stomach is the lack of consideration and respect that is given to the troops
on the ground and overseas wherever they might be. To anyone who does not respect the amount of work that is done by the military or who choose to disrespect them despite the hardships that they deal with on a daily basis, let it be known that you are all fucking lower than dirt and you need to uncork your skulls from your ass. Just remember that while some of you have decided to use your freedoms in a disrespectful way towards the military, they are the ones who have the inner strength and character to fight for those freedoms without expecting anything in return. In conclusion to this I have one thing to say to those who choose to not respect any troop who serves. SHOW SOME FUCKING RESPECT! And as for anyone serving past or present, thank you very fucking much for the job you do or have done. All of you deserve at least that..... And you deserve this from a grateful American as well. You know the drill, just right click it and open in a new window kids...
http://www.herosalute.com/states/big_game_ad_WMmid.html
A Day Without a Chucklehead.
This post started developing itself about a month ago with the title of it developing on or around May 1. A Day Without a Mexican, had in itself spurred on a post about everyone I find an abundance of stupidity residing in. But let us start off at square one and work ourselves up shall we? For those of you who do not keep up with world events. Latino's within the United States decided to show us a thing or two about what would happen if they took a day off from work, as well as participating in any marketing whatsoever on May 1. Hmmmmmm, for me May 1st went off without a hitch. Better yet my day ran even more smoothly than usual. Traffic was less congested on the freeway. Going to run errands that day did not have streets that I had to travel impeded by protesters. I found my day was quite pleasent. Two days later I recieved a piece of email showing the economic impact on May 1. Yes there was a 2.4 percent decrease in the amount of revenue taken in by stores across our nation, but wait what is this that had me grinning ear to ear. Shoplifting had also dropped that day 67.9 percent. If this is the way it is going to be forget taking a day off next time, hell take the year off... And to the little fuckers at Montebello High School as well as everyone else who thought it was a great fucking idea to hang the Mexican Flag above the American flag and then to have that hanging upside down, I have a little piece of advice for you fuckers, take your silly asses back to Mexico since you seem to think it is sooo great, and once you get there don't bother coming back. And before you get your panties in a wad thinking I don't like immigrants, you would be mistaken in thinking so. I just don't like "illegal immigrants" which is what this whole fucking thing was about in the first place. Some people just lost sight of that. Off to group two, the fucking bands on myspace that A: Can't read, or B: Are too lazy to read who or what will get added/or denied to a persons myspace acct. For those bands who consistantly decided to request an add, Thank you very fucking much
myspace for putting a mass band request denial in the preferences section. Like I stated in the beginning, if I don't like you or your music, you don't get a fucking add. And since 99 percent of the bands refused to read my page before requesting me to add them, fuck you very much you get auto-denied. Onto group three, these people recently resurfaced in having a great part of this post. These are the self absorbed people and groups that are soooo short sighted that they cannot see their own hand "or someone's fist" in front of their face much less the forest through the trees. They think/feel/believe that there is nothing else existing in this universe other than people, nature, and science. While it is true there is no scientific fact that there is such a thing as a higher plane of existence or perhaps such a thing as a higher power, it does not rule out the possibility of it existing. There is something in this world that exists inside most people called faith. No I am not talking just about religion I am talking about faith in everything. Faith is clearly defined as 1: A confident belief in the truth, value, or trustworthiness of a person, idea, or thing. or 2: Belief that does not rest on logical proof or material evidence. As it stands there have been too many cases with countless number of people to dispell the possibility of something existing within the universe that is larger and more powerful than any one individual or collective group. As I see it if you can't have faith in something larger than yourself, than how can you have faith in anything else. And before yet another group of you go off on me for being a bible thumper, ya might wanna slow your roll there to Sparky. Though I might be Catholic by religion, I am by no means always a good catholic, which I have clearly stated to most people. I have a hard time putting full belief into a book that was written by man and is therefore subject to careful scrutiny and interpretation. Yes I know some of you out there who are religious fanatics might take offense to what I just said, but ya know what, joke you if ya can't take a fuck. My beliefs fall more towards my spirituality than towards my religion nowadays, and since my religion cannot answer all of the big questions it puts more of a seperation between myself and it as well. This issue of faith and belief systems was recently raised by yet another myspace group otherwise known as "The Brights" that failed to read my page and therefore did not get the big picture on where I stand. As I read their page and looked into what their agenda was I began to think back and had visions of the Halle Bopp comet group and had visions of possible cyanide laced Kool Aid in this groups future as well. Next we come to a group that is known far too well by most of us. This is the group of individuals that feel or complain about "Not being loved the way they should." Let me be as remedial as I can for you fucktards. A: You thrive on drama and attract those type of people who bring nothing but drama and heartache into your life. B: You have decided that you must chase after relationships because you don't feel comfortable or happy
being on your own. There is a solution for both of these and surprisingly enough it is the same fucking solution. In order for you to have a sucessful relationship with anyone you must first be able to have a successful relationship with yourself. You must be able to be comfortable being alone with yourself and should be able to make yourself happy. You need to be able to love yourself before you can love anyone else or expect them to love you or be comfortable with you or make you happy. If you can't grasp that and continue to grasp at points A and B then you will have one thing that you can depend on in your life "DISFUNCTION" to which I advise you to seek help fuckers..... Lastly we come to the people who like to call us their friends. Lately I have come to the conclusion that you have friends, then you have "real friends" the latter group boys and girls are the only ones that matter. Real friends always have your back without question, and they know that you have theirs, it isn't like one minute you are walkin down the street with em and for some reason all hell breaks loose. You can depend that these individuals have true character and will be standing there beside you instead of you having to look over your shoulder wondering where the fuck did they go. I think it was best put that friends will bail you out of jail, real friends will be sitting there next to you in the cell saying
"Damn bro, we fucked up!!!" This has been your rant of the day kiddies, please tune in next time be
it tomorrow, next week, or next month for your next installment of chaos in your head. I don't think
inspiration for the next post will be that far off. Neither will the next surfing trip to Old Man's
so whoever is up for it drop me a line. To those of you who read this post I send you much love and
this piece of advice. Don't let the simple fuckers keep ya down.....:P
myspace for putting a mass band request denial in the preferences section. Like I stated in the beginning, if I don't like you or your music, you don't get a fucking add. And since 99 percent of the bands refused to read my page before requesting me to add them, fuck you very much you get auto-denied. Onto group three, these people recently resurfaced in having a great part of this post. These are the self absorbed people and groups that are soooo short sighted that they cannot see their own hand "or someone's fist" in front of their face much less the forest through the trees. They think/feel/believe that there is nothing else existing in this universe other than people, nature, and science. While it is true there is no scientific fact that there is such a thing as a higher plane of existence or perhaps such a thing as a higher power, it does not rule out the possibility of it existing. There is something in this world that exists inside most people called faith. No I am not talking just about religion I am talking about faith in everything. Faith is clearly defined as 1: A confident belief in the truth, value, or trustworthiness of a person, idea, or thing. or 2: Belief that does not rest on logical proof or material evidence. As it stands there have been too many cases with countless number of people to dispell the possibility of something existing within the universe that is larger and more powerful than any one individual or collective group. As I see it if you can't have faith in something larger than yourself, than how can you have faith in anything else. And before yet another group of you go off on me for being a bible thumper, ya might wanna slow your roll there to Sparky. Though I might be Catholic by religion, I am by no means always a good catholic, which I have clearly stated to most people. I have a hard time putting full belief into a book that was written by man and is therefore subject to careful scrutiny and interpretation. Yes I know some of you out there who are religious fanatics might take offense to what I just said, but ya know what, joke you if ya can't take a fuck. My beliefs fall more towards my spirituality than towards my religion nowadays, and since my religion cannot answer all of the big questions it puts more of a seperation between myself and it as well. This issue of faith and belief systems was recently raised by yet another myspace group otherwise known as "The Brights" that failed to read my page and therefore did not get the big picture on where I stand. As I read their page and looked into what their agenda was I began to think back and had visions of the Halle Bopp comet group and had visions of possible cyanide laced Kool Aid in this groups future as well. Next we come to a group that is known far too well by most of us. This is the group of individuals that feel or complain about "Not being loved the way they should." Let me be as remedial as I can for you fucktards. A: You thrive on drama and attract those type of people who bring nothing but drama and heartache into your life. B: You have decided that you must chase after relationships because you don't feel comfortable or happy
being on your own. There is a solution for both of these and surprisingly enough it is the same fucking solution. In order for you to have a sucessful relationship with anyone you must first be able to have a successful relationship with yourself. You must be able to be comfortable being alone with yourself and should be able to make yourself happy. You need to be able to love yourself before you can love anyone else or expect them to love you or be comfortable with you or make you happy. If you can't grasp that and continue to grasp at points A and B then you will have one thing that you can depend on in your life "DISFUNCTION" to which I advise you to seek help fuckers..... Lastly we come to the people who like to call us their friends. Lately I have come to the conclusion that you have friends, then you have "real friends" the latter group boys and girls are the only ones that matter. Real friends always have your back without question, and they know that you have theirs, it isn't like one minute you are walkin down the street with em and for some reason all hell breaks loose. You can depend that these individuals have true character and will be standing there beside you instead of you having to look over your shoulder wondering where the fuck did they go. I think it was best put that friends will bail you out of jail, real friends will be sitting there next to you in the cell saying
"Damn bro, we fucked up!!!" This has been your rant of the day kiddies, please tune in next time be
it tomorrow, next week, or next month for your next installment of chaos in your head. I don't think
inspiration for the next post will be that far off. Neither will the next surfing trip to Old Man's
so whoever is up for it drop me a line. To those of you who read this post I send you much love and
this piece of advice. Don't let the simple fuckers keep ya down.....:P
Connections.
Love and understanding
Mind and body
Heart and soul
Two entwined
Becoming one
All of these things
Radiate beauty
I kiss your lips
and wrap you
in my arms
and for the moment
till we part
I am content.
Mind and body
Heart and soul
Two entwined
Becoming one
All of these things
Radiate beauty
I kiss your lips
and wrap you
in my arms
and for the moment
till we part
I am content.
Subscribe to:
Comments (Atom)